Sunday, October 7, 2007

Jeux d'enfant

It has been deadly painful to decide to litter the old me. I hated myself -- how could one ever be more self-contempt, 饕餮, self-indulgent, careless and vulnerable than I am? I blamed myself about finding no interests in life but still craving for things beyond my ability to reach. To be greedy, ignorant and peacockish, I've kept on pushing myself and taking every tiny effort as suffering, bearing in mind 'my current pain will pay off in the future'. They've been paid off-- I pampered myself from time to time to keep the momentum to move on-- I was like a glutton, eating till death with no mercy on my physical body; then was deadly regretful, fearful, and desperate seeing myself falling down to the hell with no remedy to save back... Or, should I say, one without love is absent for being loved? or the other way around? or, specifically, one not in love will never know what love actually looks like.

Please, live on hope.

I've got tons of chances to be someone better than I am now, but I wasted; I've got plenty of time to train myself as a fearless soldier, but I cowered; I've got hopes to love or to be loved, but I dared to try out. If I am no perfection, why both to behave like a psycho-perfectionist?

Nothing has been left that I have to hide from people -- why bother? Why the hell I still want to save face if no one ever knows who I am? My stupid self-esteem blocks my eye; dries my soul; wears out my energy; poisons my brain. I'm running insanely in a circle that every no-one follows -- then die, rotten, degrade to ashes.

Career meander
The ELP classes in the past week robbed my heart. I felt pain, then realized it's time to start over. No need to hide my ignorance and weakness: no one cares except myself. Unfold every tiny little piece of myself without timidity, here I am: I'm Lulu, maybe not as good as people thought, but this is the real me. Once a coward, but now dare to speak out; once hesitated, but now march forward with braveness.

Feelings
The past week was something that worth rehashing over: I was witnessing a strenuous start of a romance; I should say, a start in hope. This guy had been feeling down for his rough love life but did never dare to try everything on this new goal. I was once told by a physics girl back in Toronto that research is 99% of real frustration, 0.9% of disguised truth, and 0.1% of chance to success. This is the gospel also applying for chaser and goal, despite that the goal itself could be a non-neglectable disruptive factor. One should be sensitive enough to feel the love deeply growing in his/her heart, senseless enough to ignore the frustrations, brave enough to uncover the fake truth, and brilliant enough to fractionate that 0.1% to the part in his/her control and make it true. Obviously, if I'm sensitive, insensible, fearless, and talented at the same time, and, forgot to mention, appears kinda 'silly and weak', I will find my true love some day for sure. (This is a rigorous prove, isn't it? Though not realistic enough, unfortunately.)

Arts & my happy life

Q: What could ever be lovelier than a beautiful musical night on Broadway?
A: Les Misérables


Les Misérables (pronunciation /le mize'ʁaːbl/), colloquially known as Les Mis, is a musical composed in 1980 by French composer Claude-Michel Schönberg on a libretto by Alain Boublil. Through-sung, it is perhaps the most famous of all French musicals and one of the most performed musicals worldwide. On October 8, 2006, the show celebrated its 21st anniversary and became the longest-running West End musical in history and is still running (though it has changed venues).

Characters

Listed in the order in which they appear

  • Javert is the ruthless police detective who adheres strongly to the belief that people cannot change for the better. Javert serves, in general, one purpose in Les Misérables, albeit an extremely important one: to pursue Jean Valjean. Vocal Range: Baritone/Bass-Baritone.
  • Jean Valjean is a multi-faceted character. He is the archetype for the reformed criminal. Though his past is checkered, he possesses a fundamental understanding of the difference between right and wrong, and through insurmountable odds, lives a life of virtue. Vocal Range: Tenor.
  • Fantine is widely recognized as the truly tragic figure of Les Misérables. She makes some difficult choices, but ultimately sacrifices herself so her daughter might have a better life. Vocal Range: Mezzo-soprano.
  • Young Cosette, the daughter of Fantine, and the icon of the Musical (found on most advertising). Vocal Range: Mezzo-Soprano.
  • Madame Thénardier, M. Thénardier's wife. Works together with her husband, both when they own the inn and later on as his partner in crime. Vocal Range: mezzo-soprano
  • M. Thénardier, the ruthless innkeeper who is the guardian of Cosette in her early years. He is arguably the very definition of "unsavory". Vocal Range: Baritone.
  • Eponine Thénardier, the daughter of the Thénardiers. In love with Marius and sees Cosette, justifiably, as a rival. As a member of her father's gang and one of the many to die on the barricades, her fortitude cannot be denied. Vocal Range: Alto.
  • Marius Pontmercy is the young, impressionable rebel student who falls in love with Valjean's adopted daughter, Cosette. One of the few left on his feet at the final curtain. Vocal Range: Baritone.
  • Cosette is Fantine's daughter and a very static character compared to the others. When coupled with Marius, their wide-eyed innocence and their optimism ensure their survival. Vocal Range: Soprano.
  • Enjolras, the student leader. Charismatic, handsome and a natural leader, his belief in the revolution takes the students, including Marius, to the barricades where they meet their demise. Vocal Range: Tenor.
  • Gavroche, a street urchin. A young boy who lives on the streets joins into the revolution. Vocal Range: boy alto/boy soprano.

A couple of names will ever be remembered:

Kaylie Rubinaccio | Young Cosette/ Young Eponine, Gary Watson | Marius, Cassandra Compton | Eponine, Joanna Ampil | Fantine

A basic introduction to the musical on Wiki

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Les_Mis%C3%A9rables_(musical)

Official site of the show:
http://www.lesmis.com/pages/about/cast.php

MoMA (Museum of Modern Arts)

It's never too late to learn that some beauty is impossible to be described by words... Not because they're too gorgeous to be sketched out, note: it's hard to plot out literally because I didn't learn why some of them are 'art' at all. lol




































Don't get me wrong; I'm not saying all works here are non-understandable, though some may be so.


















Time Square (remember the first time I was here, what kind of uneasy about future I was~~)















Guess it's time to wrap up this piece. Have fun my readers; hope you don't think this is a drag =)

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