Saturday, January 19, 2008
This is it...
used to be my favorite one from Lee Hom, but now sounds inexplicably gloomy every time I hear it...
Monday, January 14, 2008
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
peace
刚才发现原来她已经去世差不多3年了。。。为了Karen, 也为了我喜欢的BM，纪念一下
At least since her appearance as avenging angel in the scandal-causing movie BAISE-MOI, Karen Lancaume is among the best-known French pornstars. Born on January 19th 1973 near Lyon in France, the cute brunette also grew up there. As a child Karine (her real name) was a quiet girl and she lived a fairly sheltered life with her parents, her brother and their pets. She spent most of her free time outdoors, in the forests near her home.
Only once she turned 17 did this demure girl succumb to the charm of a holiday flirt and that night changed Karine thoroughly. Sweet country bumpkin by day, hot vamp on the look-out for adventures by night. Once she had finished the French equivalent to grammar school she left her home and went on to study advertising in Lyon. To earn some extra cash she began working behind the bar of a discotheque at weekends (quite handy for meeting men too). And indeed, she soon met her husband to be: Franck the disc-jockey.
Karen and Franck got married and wanted to have many children, but their financial difficulties stopped them from fulfilling that dream. The financial problems kept getting worse and when the couple spotted an ad by 'Marc Dorcel', the love-birds applied. They agreed to do the hardcore-production under one condition: They'd only shoot scenes between the two of them. The movie was called L'INDECENTE AUX ENFERS and happened to be one of the biggest French productions of 1996. But trouble started right away: Franck was having problems with his 'male-prowess' and Karen Lancaume had to finish the shoot without him. The director and producer were very happy with Karen and she was offered more work. She accepted and a new star of French erotic movies was born!
She kept shooting movies for Marc Dorcel, worked with Patrice Cabanel and all other greats of the French porn-biz. She got more and more recognition and was nominated for the 'Hot D'Or' award. Her marriage with Franck was beyond saving, despite (or maybe because) of her success and they ended up getting divorced. Karen Lancaume continued climbing the ladder of success to the top and became one of the favourite and most widely known European porn actresses. Even the biggest and best porn directors such as Andrew Blake, Luca Damiano or Mario Salieri were very eager to work with her.
But the high-point of her career should be provided by a woman: In 2000 Virginie Despentes cast Karen Lancaume for the leading role in her post-feminist scandal-movie BAISE-MOI (under the name Karen Bach). The movie, in which among other things a man is shot in the ass and which stars a range of porn-stars (such as Raphaela Anderson, Elodie Chérie, Zenza Raggi), sparked a world-wide debate about art, violence and pornography. The media blew up the movie out of all proportion, calling it an big scandal.
Karen Lancaume deserves a place among the porn legends for her role of murderous avenging angel in BAISE-MOI alone. Which other porn-actress can rightly claim to have caused an international scandal? Chapeau, Madame Lancaume!
On the night of January 28th to 29th 2005 Karen Lancaume chose to end her life. She died from taking an overdose of sleeping tablets.
At least since her appearance as avenging angel in the scandal-causing movie BAISE-MOI, Karen Lancaume is among the best-known French pornstars. Born on January 19th 1973 near Lyon in France, the cute brunette also grew up there. As a child Karine (her real name) was a quiet girl and she lived a fairly sheltered life with her parents, her brother and their pets. She spent most of her free time outdoors, in the forests near her home.
Only once she turned 17 did this demure girl succumb to the charm of a holiday flirt and that night changed Karine thoroughly. Sweet country bumpkin by day, hot vamp on the look-out for adventures by night. Once she had finished the French equivalent to grammar school she left her home and went on to study advertising in Lyon. To earn some extra cash she began working behind the bar of a discotheque at weekends (quite handy for meeting men too). And indeed, she soon met her husband to be: Franck the disc-jockey.
Karen and Franck got married and wanted to have many children, but their financial difficulties stopped them from fulfilling that dream. The financial problems kept getting worse and when the couple spotted an ad by 'Marc Dorcel', the love-birds applied. They agreed to do the hardcore-production under one condition: They'd only shoot scenes between the two of them. The movie was called L'INDECENTE AUX ENFERS and happened to be one of the biggest French productions of 1996. But trouble started right away: Franck was having problems with his 'male-prowess' and Karen Lancaume had to finish the shoot without him. The director and producer were very happy with Karen and she was offered more work. She accepted and a new star of French erotic movies was born!
She kept shooting movies for Marc Dorcel, worked with Patrice Cabanel and all other greats of the French porn-biz. She got more and more recognition and was nominated for the 'Hot D'Or' award. Her marriage with Franck was beyond saving, despite (or maybe because) of her success and they ended up getting divorced. Karen Lancaume continued climbing the ladder of success to the top and became one of the favourite and most widely known European porn actresses. Even the biggest and best porn directors such as Andrew Blake, Luca Damiano or Mario Salieri were very eager to work with her.
But the high-point of her career should be provided by a woman: In 2000 Virginie Despentes cast Karen Lancaume for the leading role in her post-feminist scandal-movie BAISE-MOI (under the name Karen Bach). The movie, in which among other things a man is shot in the ass and which stars a range of porn-stars (such as Raphaela Anderson, Elodie Chérie, Zenza Raggi), sparked a world-wide debate about art, violence and pornography. The media blew up the movie out of all proportion, calling it an big scandal.
Karen Lancaume deserves a place among the porn legends for her role of murderous avenging angel in BAISE-MOI alone. Which other porn-actress can rightly claim to have caused an international scandal? Chapeau, Madame Lancaume!
On the night of January 28th to 29th 2005 Karen Lancaume chose to end her life. She died from taking an overdose of sleeping tablets.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
did you hear it...
Adagio for Strings and Organ (Tomaso Albinoni)
Canon in D
生命中不可承受的轻 （梁静茹）
会呼吸的痛
Ces't la vie
Canon in D
生命中不可承受的轻 （梁静茹）
会呼吸的痛
Ces't la vie
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
How much I love you
现在才明白自己是一个多么害怕孤独的孩子。。。
常常跟他们讲起过去在Toronto的两年并不开心 -- 不是因为没有朋友，只是自己都不明白为什么表面硬撑的躯壳底下为什么总是藏着那么寒冷的灵魂。所有人都是需要爱的吧，可是没有人能体会18岁后的6年里没有办法真正找到能融化冻结心灵的温暖的那种绝望。不知道是太贪心还是太脆弱，虽然一路走来总有不错的运气，虽然总以为自己已经坚强到麻木到冷血，可是当失望到已经没法再期望，麻痹自己变成了逃避现实的最佳手段。那种对家人对自己对所有爱我的人的责任感成了最重要的支撑，可能已经逐渐能体会到anego的心情了吧，各种各样的危机感接踵而至；即使是anego还知道自己想要什么却得不到，而我，过去六年的我，虽然从没放弃过奋斗，却连自己想要得都看不到。
Roger曾经问我是不是也觉得本命年很霉，Hao-yuh和我相视而笑：这一年真是什么怪事倒霉事都让我碰上了。可是，有些话我并没能说出来：知道吗? 其实刚过去的2007年是我最开心的一年。能来到这个学校，感受这里奇特的文化，能和MIT作邻居（不管你们怎么损Harvard=p), 被这么多优秀的人们包围着，那种幸福的感觉是从来都没有过的。
谢谢你，Hao-yuh, 谢谢你在刚过去的12月里教会我蟑螂的坚强，谢谢你的倾听和分享，谢谢我们一起喝酒聊天的快乐时光，谢谢你的乐观和笑容，谢谢你从Time Square发来的新年的明媚的祝福。谢谢你的音乐，你的歌声，谢谢你和我们一起庆祝你自己和Gao Wei的生日。谢谢你在SEAS Holiday Party上帮我解围，谢谢你和我还有Jane共度的xmas eve。谢谢你亲身诠释什么是宽容和随和，谢谢你在我无助的时候给我的建议。谢谢你推荐给我的美食，谢谢你勇敢的吃掉Legal Seafood那个巨大的baked potato =p。谢谢我们一起打球时你拼命的样子给我的鼓励，谢谢你给我还有我给你起的绰号，谢谢我们一起八卦的故事，你在Facebook上认真地quote我说的话还有你送的冰淇淋。认识你真的是我的幸运。
谢谢你，Roger, 真的不知道该怎么表达我的感谢，只想让你知道你对我来说是多么重要的"ice breaker", 让我的2007年的最后两个星期变得如此难忘。谢谢你在我滑雪摔得乱七八糟的时候伸出的援手，谢谢你做我的司机，在我心情不好的时候陪我去海边（那是我这辈子见过最神奇的月光下的海滩+冷死我了@@), 谢谢你玩杀人时一直搅局，还有开心的温暖的每一点一滴。还有最重要的，谢谢你没有放纵我的任性和冲动，给我冷静的时间，去懂得和珍惜。无论你离开的2008年1月是不是一个终结，我都会好好保存这段记忆；在今后的日子里，把你当作最好的朋友去爱，感谢上天让我遇见优秀，开朗和细心的你。
谢谢你，Gao Wei大哥+半个老乡，谢谢你组织的所有活动，而且每次都算我一个，谢谢你的照顾，谢谢你让我认识那么多MIT的朋友 （虽然你一直问我为什么总和MIT-ers混在一起+是不是被Harvard-ers踢出来了），谢谢你唱得那么多好听的歌，谢谢你和我们一起过生日（虽然你的生日礼物我一直没想出买什么），谢谢你的拥抱，谢谢你教我滑雪，帮我克服心理障碍，指出我的错误和问题。谢谢你在career上给我的建议，你的坚定的自信为我做了很好的榜样。谢谢你的火锅，一起看烟火，每次都怀疑我是杀手（这该感谢吗@@)。谢谢你为大家做的一切，谢谢你擦亮了我倒霉的本命年。祝你在纽约的新生活成为你想更高目标奋斗的美好起点，加油！！！
谢谢你，Vivien, 谢谢你陪我看Nodame Cantabile看到早上四点多，谢谢你让我认识神学院的同学们，谢谢我们一起吃饭聊天八卦逛街，谢谢你帮我和Harvard的中国同学们维系了联系，谢谢你给我烤平生第一个蛋糕的机会并且作第一个鉴定者+支持者（更坚定了我做dessert chef的决心=)，谢谢你在gloomy New England wintier邀请我去享受加州的阳光, 谢谢你告诉我我是一个让你觉得舒服的朋友。
谢谢你们，Amos, Nan, Scott, Wei, 你们是我在Harvard最感激的人，谢谢你们支持我组织的Tuesday/Thursday Lunch, 谢谢你们让我看见了Harvard最上进最纯朴最善良也最平易近人的一群人。谢谢你，Amos（还有Karen -- 最可爱的一对=)，祝我们以后share办公室愉快+工作愉快，还有弹琴愉快。谢谢你，Nan, 谢谢你一直做我的grocery-mate, 帮我从加拿大带回重要的记忆，谢谢你对八卦新闻的支持，谢谢你请我去听京剧，谢谢你还有Scott让我看到对research得认真和热情。谢谢你Scott, I really appreciate your loyalty and commitment to your religion. 谢谢你让我在这个浮躁的社会里看到这样纯洁，平静和年轻的精神。 谢谢你，Wei, we share lots of similar experience. 谢谢你在学习工作还有学校各种莫名其妙的policy上给我的建议。
谢谢你们，Joe and Martin, 谢谢你们做我的office-mates, 你们真的是非常棒的companion呢，在选择老板上给我重要的信息，和我聊天，开玩笑，你们的存在让我觉得温暖和幸福。虽然一个星期后我们就永远不再是officemates了，可是这个永远洒满阳光的办公室，还有你们，还有小蛇Wilber, 我永远都不会忘记。
谢谢你，Seungyung, 你真的是我的amazing flatmate. I'm so impressed by your generosity, optimistic spirit, and outgoing personality. 虽然每次大扫除还是要由我来组织，可是你每次认真的样子都让我看见一个韩国女生身上不可多得的优秀品质。
谢谢你们，Shu-hsien, Jack, Emily, Sally, Ting-yi, 还有其他很多很多的台湾朋友，你们让我了解了和我很不一样的你们的成长经历，让我接触了许多我从前没机会接触的东西。你们的热情和open-mindedness让我和你们渡过了许多难忘的时光。
谢谢你们，Joe, Christoph, Julien, Charles, JM, Etienne, Cristen, and all other friends in Canada, 你们是我在加拿大最舍不得放下的回忆。谢谢我们曾经一起skating, skiing, taking trip together to Montreal, 谢谢你们在那个寒冷的国度尽全力给我的温暖。
谢谢你们，Cherrie, 还有其他UofT undergrad的朋友，每当我想起你们的年轻的活力和永远用不完的能量，自己就像被充足了电一样。还有小Cherrie, 你真的是个很神奇的女生呢，我会记住你告诉我的你的梦想，相信你自己，总有一天会实现，你也会遇见那个真正属于你的另一半圆圈。
谢谢你们，Yonggang, Dick, Guido, 还有所有组员，谢谢你们过去对我的照顾和关心。Yonggang, 要早点毕业哦。
谢谢你，Zhao Yi, 有你在的日子让我觉得快乐，谢谢过去我们贫嘴抬杠的经历。谢谢你新年的祝福。祝你和你lp永远幸福。
常常跟他们讲起过去在Toronto的两年并不开心 -- 不是因为没有朋友，只是自己都不明白为什么表面硬撑的躯壳底下为什么总是藏着那么寒冷的灵魂。所有人都是需要爱的吧，可是没有人能体会18岁后的6年里没有办法真正找到能融化冻结心灵的温暖的那种绝望。不知道是太贪心还是太脆弱，虽然一路走来总有不错的运气，虽然总以为自己已经坚强到麻木到冷血，可是当失望到已经没法再期望，麻痹自己变成了逃避现实的最佳手段。那种对家人对自己对所有爱我的人的责任感成了最重要的支撑，可能已经逐渐能体会到anego的心情了吧，各种各样的危机感接踵而至；即使是anego还知道自己想要什么却得不到，而我，过去六年的我，虽然从没放弃过奋斗，却连自己想要得都看不到。
Roger曾经问我是不是也觉得本命年很霉，Hao-yuh和我相视而笑：这一年真是什么怪事倒霉事都让我碰上了。可是，有些话我并没能说出来：知道吗? 其实刚过去的2007年是我最开心的一年。能来到这个学校，感受这里奇特的文化，能和MIT作邻居（不管你们怎么损Harvard=p), 被这么多优秀的人们包围着，那种幸福的感觉是从来都没有过的。
谢谢你，Hao-yuh, 谢谢你在刚过去的12月里教会我蟑螂的坚强，谢谢你的倾听和分享，谢谢我们一起喝酒聊天的快乐时光，谢谢你的乐观和笑容，谢谢你从Time Square发来的新年的明媚的祝福。谢谢你的音乐，你的歌声，谢谢你和我们一起庆祝你自己和Gao Wei的生日。谢谢你在SEAS Holiday Party上帮我解围，谢谢你和我还有Jane共度的xmas eve。谢谢你亲身诠释什么是宽容和随和，谢谢你在我无助的时候给我的建议。谢谢你推荐给我的美食，谢谢你勇敢的吃掉Legal Seafood那个巨大的baked potato =p。谢谢我们一起打球时你拼命的样子给我的鼓励，谢谢你给我还有我给你起的绰号，谢谢我们一起八卦的故事，你在Facebook上认真地quote我说的话还有你送的冰淇淋。认识你真的是我的幸运。
谢谢你，Roger, 真的不知道该怎么表达我的感谢，只想让你知道你对我来说是多么重要的"ice breaker", 让我的2007年的最后两个星期变得如此难忘。谢谢你在我滑雪摔得乱七八糟的时候伸出的援手，谢谢你做我的司机，在我心情不好的时候陪我去海边（那是我这辈子见过最神奇的月光下的海滩+冷死我了@@), 谢谢你玩杀人时一直搅局，还有开心的温暖的每一点一滴。还有最重要的，谢谢你没有放纵我的任性和冲动，给我冷静的时间，去懂得和珍惜。无论你离开的2008年1月是不是一个终结，我都会好好保存这段记忆；在今后的日子里，把你当作最好的朋友去爱，感谢上天让我遇见优秀，开朗和细心的你。
谢谢你，Gao Wei大哥+半个老乡，谢谢你组织的所有活动，而且每次都算我一个，谢谢你的照顾，谢谢你让我认识那么多MIT的朋友 （虽然你一直问我为什么总和MIT-ers混在一起+是不是被Harvard-ers踢出来了），谢谢你唱得那么多好听的歌，谢谢你和我们一起过生日（虽然你的生日礼物我一直没想出买什么），谢谢你的拥抱，谢谢你教我滑雪，帮我克服心理障碍，指出我的错误和问题。谢谢你在career上给我的建议，你的坚定的自信为我做了很好的榜样。谢谢你的火锅，一起看烟火，每次都怀疑我是杀手（这该感谢吗@@)。谢谢你为大家做的一切，谢谢你擦亮了我倒霉的本命年。祝你在纽约的新生活成为你想更高目标奋斗的美好起点，加油！！！
谢谢你，Vivien, 谢谢你陪我看Nodame Cantabile看到早上四点多，谢谢你让我认识神学院的同学们，谢谢我们一起吃饭聊天八卦逛街，谢谢你帮我和Harvard的中国同学们维系了联系，谢谢你给我烤平生第一个蛋糕的机会并且作第一个鉴定者+支持者（更坚定了我做dessert chef的决心=)，谢谢你在gloomy New England wintier邀请我去享受加州的阳光, 谢谢你告诉我我是一个让你觉得舒服的朋友。
谢谢你们，Amos, Nan, Scott, Wei, 你们是我在Harvard最感激的人，谢谢你们支持我组织的Tuesday/Thursday Lunch, 谢谢你们让我看见了Harvard最上进最纯朴最善良也最平易近人的一群人。谢谢你，Amos（还有Karen -- 最可爱的一对=)，祝我们以后share办公室愉快+工作愉快，还有弹琴愉快。谢谢你，Nan, 谢谢你一直做我的grocery-mate, 帮我从加拿大带回重要的记忆，谢谢你对八卦新闻的支持，谢谢你请我去听京剧，谢谢你还有Scott让我看到对research得认真和热情。谢谢你Scott, I really appreciate your loyalty and commitment to your religion. 谢谢你让我在这个浮躁的社会里看到这样纯洁，平静和年轻的精神。 谢谢你，Wei, we share lots of similar experience. 谢谢你在学习工作还有学校各种莫名其妙的policy上给我的建议。
谢谢你们，Joe and Martin, 谢谢你们做我的office-mates, 你们真的是非常棒的companion呢，在选择老板上给我重要的信息，和我聊天，开玩笑，你们的存在让我觉得温暖和幸福。虽然一个星期后我们就永远不再是officemates了，可是这个永远洒满阳光的办公室，还有你们，还有小蛇Wilber, 我永远都不会忘记。
谢谢你，Seungyung, 你真的是我的amazing flatmate. I'm so impressed by your generosity, optimistic spirit, and outgoing personality. 虽然每次大扫除还是要由我来组织，可是你每次认真的样子都让我看见一个韩国女生身上不可多得的优秀品质。
谢谢你们，Shu-hsien, Jack, Emily, Sally, Ting-yi, 还有其他很多很多的台湾朋友，你们让我了解了和我很不一样的你们的成长经历，让我接触了许多我从前没机会接触的东西。你们的热情和open-mindedness让我和你们渡过了许多难忘的时光。
谢谢你们，Joe, Christoph, Julien, Charles, JM, Etienne, Cristen, and all other friends in Canada, 你们是我在加拿大最舍不得放下的回忆。谢谢我们曾经一起skating, skiing, taking trip together to Montreal, 谢谢你们在那个寒冷的国度尽全力给我的温暖。
谢谢你们，Cherrie, 还有其他UofT undergrad的朋友，每当我想起你们的年轻的活力和永远用不完的能量，自己就像被充足了电一样。还有小Cherrie, 你真的是个很神奇的女生呢，我会记住你告诉我的你的梦想，相信你自己，总有一天会实现，你也会遇见那个真正属于你的另一半圆圈。
谢谢你们，Yonggang, Dick, Guido, 还有所有组员，谢谢你们过去对我的照顾和关心。Yonggang, 要早点毕业哦。
谢谢你，Zhao Yi, 有你在的日子让我觉得快乐，谢谢过去我们贫嘴抬杠的经历。谢谢你新年的祝福。祝你和你lp永远幸福。
谢谢你们，Huang Yi, Shih-yuh, Qin, Deng Yi, Tianyi. 知道吗？没有你们，没有我们在Colorado 的故事，就没有今天的我。真的，真的，我真得很爱你们，还有我们的Colorado, Rocky Mountain, and Bear Peak.
实在有太多太多地感动和感激想告诉所有爱过我帮助过我，以及骂过我和毫不留情批评我缺点的人，可是再写下去估计也不会有人想看了(我最长的blog...). 所以这里没有提到的人千万别生我的气，本人虽然经常忘事，可是永远不会忘了祝福你们。爸爸妈妈和家里的各位关怀我的长辈我另外道谢，就不占用这里的空间了。
Do you know how much I love you, and how much I love every minute being with you...
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