little lulu

我喜欢的狗狗

2009-10-15T13:16:00.000-07:00

古牧

怎么会有这么好笑的注释...

特征：全身被着卷毛，外表看不到脸，有尾巴。刚出生的幼犬，应在出生后二至三天内断尾。以侧对步步行，体形呈箱形，体高与体长几乎相同。全身被毛柔软弯曲，头大而圆，被长毛遮住脸面，无尾，走路摇摇晃晃，模样十分可爱。不动的时候，常被当做绒毛玩具。他的眼睛被毛覆盖着，不是很管用。据说走路经常会撞到柱子啊什么的。好奇的人经常会有扒开他脸上的毛，有看看他眼睛长什么样的想法。

St. Bernard

很伟大的狗狗

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西高地白梗

西高地白梗。幼犬和短嘴贵宾幼犬，比熊幼犬非常相似，基本上分不出区别。但是他们有非常明显的性格差异。不像贵宾听话，也不想比熊有亲和力，西高一直都是非常自恋非常自傲的犬类。

比熊犬
Bichon Frise

卷毛比熊犬是一种娇小的，强健的白色粉扑型的狗，具有欢快的气质，他的气质从他羽毛般欢快地卷在背后的尾巴和好奇的眼神中就能体现出来。

Phi Beta Kappa Commencement 2009

2009-10-13T16:01:00.001-07:00

Harvard Gazette

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Ten Great Places to Hike Around DC by Public Transportation (and counting)

2009-10-09T15:14:00.001-07:00

Ten Great Places to Hike Around DC by Public Transportation (and counting)

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2009-10-09T15:13:00.001-07:00

Ten Great Places to Hike Around DC by Public Transportation (and counting)

Two of the things we love best about living in the DC metro area are the public transportation system, and the parks. And so, one of our main topics on the Natural Capital has been combining the two: how to get to our favorite parks in the DC area without a car. Turns out there are a lot of options.The links in this post go to our write-ups of each park and how to get there.

1. The National Arboretum: a riot of azaleas in the spring, fields of wildflowers in the summer, and the lovely Fern Valley are our favorite spots. You'll also find a bonsai collection, a youth garden where local kids have their own plots, a grove consisting of the official trees of every state, waterfront along the Anacostia River…all by taking the B2 bus from Stadium Armory.
2. Rock Creek Park is another treasure in the heart of DC, especially when Beach drive is closed on the weekend. Our post includes 10 points of entry by public transportation, from the Potomac waterfront all the way up to the DC/Maryland border.
3. The Northwest Branch of the Anacostia River is followed by a trail through Montgomery and Prince George's Counties, with something for everyone: the northern part is rocky and hilly, but further south it's an easy, paved trail. There are several ways to get there by bus and Metro.
4. The C&O Canal is a 184.5 mile-long canal that was built to transport goods from Georgetown to Cumberland, MD. The towpath – and green space on both sides of the canal – make it a great place to explore. You can get to a few places in the first 4 miles of the trail by public transportation; after that, you'll have to bike if you want to stay car-free.
5. Kenilworth Aquatic Gardens is at its peak in July and August, when the water lilies and water lotuses are blooming. But it also has a lovely stretch of marsh on the Anacostia River that you can visit year-round. The park is less than a mile from Deanwood Metro.
6. Greenbelt Park offers a chance not just to hike and bike (with over 8 miles of trails), but you can also camp there. And it's less than a mile from the College Park Metro.
7. Roosevelt Island, in the middle of the Potomac, is a surprisingly diverse oasis not far from the intensely urban settings of Rosslyn and Georgetown: the island includes woods and a tidal freshwater marsh. The entrance is less than a mile from Rosslyn Metro.
8. Lake Artemesia is 38-acre lake that was created during construction of Metro, appropriately enough. You'll find a 2 mile trail around the lake, connecting to the trails that follow the Northeast Branch of the Anacostia. It's not far from College Park Metro.
9. Glover-Archbold Park is another green oasis in the middle of the city -- a long, narrow park that follows Foundry Branch from Van Ness Street in Tenleytown to Canal Road, just west of Georgetown University. Buses cross the park at several points, giving several different options for getting there.
10. Huntley Meadows is 1,425 acre park of wetlands, meadows, and forest just south of the Beltway in Fairfax County. You can get there by bus from Huntington Avenue Metro.

We'll continue adding links to this post as we cover more car-free hiking spots in the DC area -- there are more to come. If you know of a place we should write about, please drop us a line in the comments. Thanks!

2009-10-05T13:59:00.001-07:00

我们都寂寞

2009-09-15T14:37:00.001-07:00

好久不见

2009-09-15T14:35:00.000-07:00

bittersweet

2009-09-02T15:00:00.000-07:00

世界上最遥远的距离The farthest distance in the world
　　
　　----泰戈尔
　　　　
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　不是生与死的距离
　　　　而是我站在你面前你不知道我爱你
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is not the distance between life and death
　　　　But you don't know I love you when I stand in front of you
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　不是我站在你面前你不知道我爱你
　　　　而是爱到痴迷却不能说我爱你
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is not you don't know I love you when I stand in front of you
　　　　But I cannot say I love you when I love you so madly
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　不是爱到痴迷却不能说我爱你
　　　　而是想你痛彻心扉却只能深埋心底
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is not I cannot say I love you when I love you so madly
　　　　But I can only bury it in my heart dispite the unbearable yearning
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　不是想你痛彻心扉却只能深埋心底
　　　　而是彼此相爱却不能够在一起
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is not I can only bury it in my heart dispite the unbearable yearning
　　　　But we cannot be together when we love each other
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　不是彼此相爱却不能够在一起
　　　　而是明知道真爱无敌却装作毫不在意
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is not we cannot be together when we love each other
　　　　But we pretend caring nothing even we know love is unconquerable
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　不是树与树的距离
　　　　而是同根生长的树枝却无法在风中相依
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is not the distance between two trees
　　　　But the branches cannot depend on each other in wind even they grow from the same root
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　不是树枝无法相依
　　　　而是相互了望的星星却没有交汇的轨迹
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is not the braches cannot depend on each other
　　　　But two stars cannot meet even they watch each other
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　不是星星之间的轨迹
　　　　而是纵然轨迹交汇却在转瞬间无处寻觅
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is not the track between two stars
　　　　But nowhere to search in a tick after two tracks join
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　不是瞬间便无处寻觅
　　　　而是尚未相遇便注定无法相聚
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is not nowhere to search in a tick
　　　　But doomed not to be together before they meet
　　　　
　　　　世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　是鱼与飞鸟的距离
　　　　一个在天一个却深潜海底
　　　　The farthest distance in the world
　　　　Is the distance between fish and bird
　　　　One is in the sky, another is in the sea

上工第二日

2009-08-11T19:53:00.000-07:00

早九点至晚七点午餐也是边干活边吃
两个字充实
可能在学校呆的太久了忽然十分开心于这种不用把工作带回家（至少目前不用）的生活
不用花五六年时间去做一成不变的research让我呼吸到了前所未有的新鲜空气
压力自然是不可避免的 DC的好天气起到了非常有效的缓解作用

谢谢某人的鼓励
不带偏见的去看 DC还是蛮可爱的
除了Boston仍旧是夜夜想念

有一天，我们可不可以这样相爱

2009-08-03T12:38:00.001-07:00

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

约定好去每一个彼此都想去的地方

记在备忘里

然后一个一个的慢慢实践

在每一个景点

拍下两人紧握的双手

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

去吃每一处想吃的美食

收集店里的小票

记录时间地址食物

再用手机拍下残羹冷炙的身影

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

逛了无数家店后

突然手指向同一个方向

声音传来

"this one"

"就是这件"

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

哼起了一段旋律

另一个什么也不说的

轻轻唱出下一句

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

畅想未来生活时

可以惊愕发现

心中构筑的小家

有着同样的风景

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

在某个角落

放一首歌

一个喜欢旋律一个喜欢歌词

再找一首歌

喜欢旋律又喜欢歌词

这样的两首歌只能彼此唱来听

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

在对方忙碌的时候

适时的退到一旁

安静的守候自己的想念

等待对方忙完

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

做让对方为难的事情

抱歉的流泪

另一个什么也不说

只是静静的把哭泣的人搂在怀里

心中责怪又不忍责怪

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

不去计较自己做了多少

只是用心看到

对方付出的点点关怀

并心存感恩的去珍藏

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

当异性走来时

只是微笑的掏出钱夹里两人相拥的合影

轻轻的说句"对不起,我已经有了要守候的人"

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

面对纷纷扰扰的尘嚣

只在心里确定

想和眼前的人过好每一天

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

有属于一个人的理想

有属于两个人的生活

即使不完美却很完整

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

不去担心会不会失去彼此

却在心底无比确定不能失去彼此

不去想这段感情能活多长时间

却在心里将永远视为理想期限

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

心中的我爱你

像太阳从东方升起

像人类生存需要呼吸

一样自然和必须

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱

心中追求的

不是大起大落

只是对方愿意一起度过的平淡生活

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱...

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱...

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱

我想每天早起拉开窗帘迎接阳光

收拾狭小且凌乱的房间

做简单却拿手的煎蛋

洗去一身油烟味

轻轻走过去摇醒睡在大床上的那个人

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱

我想躺在阳光里只是冥想

看你皱着眉一页一页的翻过小说

顺势往你嘴里塞一两片零食

看你毫不犹豫的吃掉

再自然的帮你清理掉地的残渣

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱

我想在你心情不好的时候

保持沉默的同时

把你的头静静的搂在怀里

拍拍你的肩

让你知道不快总会过去

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱

我想在家里亮一盏灯等候

加班晚归的你

在你掏出钥匙的一刻

穿着围裙为你打开大门

让你看到笑笑的我和

一桌不丰盛却热气腾腾的饭菜

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱

我想在我不能陪伴你出差的时候

替你收拾行李

再偷偷放一张纸条

叮嘱你记得穿衣记得吃药

记得把自己安安全全的带回家

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱

我想在某个争吵冷战的夜里

向你这样妥协

"要不,我们都承认我对了"

"要不,我们都承认你错了"

等你无奈又无语的摸摸我的头

轻轻的抱抱我

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱

我想比你先离开这个世上

然后看你在每个值得纪念的日子

替我轻轻擦拭黑色的墓碑

再摆上一枝盛开的花

有一天,我们可不可以这样相爱...

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱...

我想我再也不会选择离开

无论身旁的你在或者不在...

如果有一天,我们可以这样相爱...

我想我再也不会选择离开

无论身旁的你在或者不在

送给那些爱胡思乱想的女生----看一看，你就豁然开朗啦。。。 (ZZ)

2009-07-29T13:09:00.001-07:00

1、不要在流眼泪的时候做任何决定，情绪负面的时候说话越少越好。　　
2、不要去反复思考同一个问题，不要把所有的感情都放在一个人身上，你还有父母，有朋友。　　
3、不要害怕做错什么，即使错了，也不必懊恼，人生就是对对错错，何况有许多事，回头看来，对错已经无所谓了。　　
4、有负面情绪是正常的，但是自己一定要知道，要明白这只是生活的一小部分，在其余时间里，要尽量的让情绪平稳起来。　　
5、那个人，突然不联系你了，很正常;那个人，突然又联系你了，也很正常，这什么也不说明。
6、如果不懂，就说出来，如果懂了，就别说，笑笑即可。　　
7、一切的烦恼都是自找，因此也只能自己解决，不要找朋友哭诉，找他们去打球。
8、说过的话一定要做到，即使是很蠢的话，再蠢也比言而无信好。　
9、无论发生怎样的变故，不要打破生活原有的规律，要按时吃饭，按时睡觉。　10、不要去害怕做一件事，不要害怕触景伤情，不要害怕说错话，不要害怕想起过去，不要害怕面对未来。
11、无论是对是错，你需要有一个准则，你的行为应该遵循这个准则，并根据现实生活不断的修正。反反复复优柔寡断的人，是不可能讨人喜欢的.在对错之间徘徊的人，形象不如从错到对的人正面。　　
12、当他说：“让我们冷静一段时间好吗？”的时候，要冷静的说好，然后挂掉电话。不要哀求，他不是来征求你的意见的。　　
13、不要把心底的话全掏出来，这些是只属于你的财富。　　
14、不要和一个人和他议论同一个圈子里的人，不管你认为他有多么可靠。
15、当你不知道和他说什么的时候，那就什么也不要说，沉默有无限种含义。　
16、不要追求什么结果，每个人结果都一样，就是死亡。　　
17、不要后悔，无论怎样都不要后悔，后悔的情绪比你所做错的事更加可怕，因为这会摧毁你的自信，自尊以及很有可能让你去做一件更错的事。
18、无论遇到什么事情，都要对自己说：这是正常的。而不要说：我怎么这么倒霉？或是：他怎么这样？那些遇到汶川地震，911或印尼海啸的人很多都没有机会抱怨了。比起他们，生活中的一些波折都是正常的，今天也许你的男朋友离你而去，你会觉得自己是世界上最惨的人，但是别忘了也许这世上同时有几十万个姑娘和你有着同样的遭遇，只是你不知道而已。
19、不要担心嫁不出去，更不要因为年纪大了草率结婚，担心嫁不出去总比担心老公出轨要离婚，小三抢财产要好.担心嫁不出去只是担心而已，心情好了还照样过原来的日子，老公真要离婚那才是真的麻烦。　　
20、一定要明白，自己所做的一切都是为了追寻一种状态，一种自我的满足感和幸福感.不要害怕什么，这世上可供害怕的事太多了，你是害怕不完的。有事情，就解决，不能解决，那就拉倒。
21、最后一条，女人想过得好一些，还是要走内在男人化，外在女人化的路啊！

Thanks Cherrie ^^

2009-07-28T21:02:00.000-07:00

if you love something, set it free, if it comes back..it is yours, if it doesnt , it never was

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2009-07-28T20:00:00.000-07:00

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Y(^_^)Y 举双手胜利

\^o^/ 欢呼

^o^y 胜利^o^y

↖(^ω^)↗ 小猪为你打气！

~^o^~ 加油呦!

*^ˍ^* 笑，打

*^ο^* 哦～，呵呵傻笑

*^◎^* 呵呵大笑（嘴唇好厚）

*^÷^* 得意的笑（有上下唇的哟）

~~~^_^~~~ 笑毙罗（笑得连眼泪都蹦出来了...）

~~~///(^v^)\\\~~~ 微笑表示友善!!!~哈~哈~

作者：峰舞冰琴
2006-9-26 11:36 回复此发言

2 回复：可爱的符号表情!~

~@^_^@~ 可爱呦!

\\*^o^*// 可爱ㄋㄟ~

~*.*~ 害羞又迷人的小女生

#^_^# 脸红了!!

∩__∩y 耶~~^^ (装可爱?!)

（*^＠^*）乖～（还含个奶嘴哦） X﹏X糟糕．．完蛋的意思呀~~

(° ο°)~@ 晕倒了..

{{{(>_<)}}} 发抖

╯﹏╰ 粉无奈~~

\(╯-╰)/ 很没劲/无耐的意思

｝_｝粉无奈..粉悲情

-____-" 唉~~别提了.....

。_。受到打击，表情呈现呆滞样～

//(ㄒoㄒ)// 流泪中...

::>_<:: 哭

〒_〒鸣~~我在哭...

%>_<% 我要哭了哦...

╰_╯我发火了!! 生气的意思~~~眉毛都翘起来~~

>_<# 粉生气~冒青筋

@x@ 生气

（＞﹏＜）不～

（*+﹏+*）~ @ 受不了～

x__x, 唉..... 别哭了!

>_<||| 很尴尬~!!!

^_^; 尴尬

⊙﹏⊙‖∣° 真尴尬～～

^_^||| 好尴尬！

^_^" 尴尬的笑.....

→_→ 怀疑的眼神~~

..@_@|||||.. 头昏眼花

…(⊙_⊙;)… ○圭~○列~~怎麼酱？

o_o .... 沉思(说穿了"呆滞状况")

O__O" 呆滞的眼神~~~!!
///^_^....... 造成"冷"...乾笑~

( ^_^ )? 什麼意思??

(+_+)? 不知道你在什麼

o_O??? 发生啥事?

@_@a 搔头，疑惑

一一+ 锐利的眼神~

>"<|||| 伤脑筋的意思~ ‘(*>﹏<*)′ 好刺激..

（*@ο@*）哇～

O_o 惊讶~~~

（⊙ｏ⊙）目瞪口呆

（°ο°）~ @ 晕倒，不省人事

*@_@* 崇拜的眼神;眼睛为之一亮

★~★ 见到偶像眼睛为之一亮

^◎- 爱你呦~~

(*^‧^*) 啵一个!

(^_^)∠※ 送你一束花

（*^〔^*〕羞羞

‘（*^﹏^*）′ 超级羞羞

‘（*∩_∩*）′ 献上

~_~ 想睡觉了的意思!!

(～ o ～)~zZ 我想睡啦～

π_π 打瞌睡

=@~@= 一个看到美眉就紧张+脸红的大学生。

@(一-一) 秘密--------嘘```````

(^人^) 拜托啦^^~

(^_^)/~~ 掰掰~

*x*... ... 你逼我也没用,我劫对不会搜粗弃的!

（ˇˍˇ）嗯～，思考中

．．<{=．．．乌鸦乌鸦飞过去表示冷场,无趣.....

（*>.<*）~ @ 酸～

~`o`~ 了解

ˋ_ˊ* 你不要命啦!!!

-.- 装蒜 ~>_<~+ 好感人唷...

Q_Q 流眼泪的样子!!

（＋﹏＋）流泪，感动

‘（＋﹏＋）′ 超级感动，眼泪不停

|||||||||| 动作篇 ||||||||||

(¯^¯ ) 当然！ ( @o@ )|||| ㄟㄟㄟ…！？

z( U__U )z 可恶…(手扠腰) (>＿<)}} 好冷喔～

( +_+ ) 刺眼！ (x___x) (昏倒)

( ∪.∪ )... zzz ZZZ 呼噜呼噜…… *\( ^ v ^ )/* GO (拿彩球)

( ¯▽¯；) 糟糕！被发现了！ ( 9__6 ) 我疯了…

(；°○° ) 啊！！ o(‘′)OOO 连发飞拳！

|||||||||| 表情篇 ||||||||||

(‧_‧？) 什麼事啊？ ( T___T ) 怎麼会这样…

(≥◇≤) 感动～ ( ⊙ o ⊙ ) 目瞪口呆

( *>.<* ) ~@ 酸～～！ ( $ _ $ ) 见钱眼开！

(ｂ_ｄ) 戴了副眼镜 ( 3__3 ) 刚睡醒～

( ＠^^＠) 脸红了啦！ (？o？) 喔？

(*^﹏^*) 超级羞羞～ ( 「「 ) ~~~→ 怀疑喔～～

愉快的情况

↖(^ω^)↗ 小猪为你打气！ ~^o^~ 加油呦!

*^◎^* 呵呵大笑（嘴唇好厚） *^÷^* 得意的笑（有上下唇的哟

~*.*~ 害羞又迷人的小女生 ∩__∩y 耶~~^^ (装可爱?!)

不愉快时的情况

X﹏X糟糕．．完蛋的意思呀~~ (° ο°)~@ 晕倒了..

╯﹏╰ 粉无奈~~

-____-" 唉~~别提了.....

。_。受到打击，表情呈现呆滞样～ -（- 好伤心.

::>_<:: 哭〒_〒鸣~~我在哭...

%>_<% 我要哭了哦... ╰_╯我发火了!! 生气的意思~~~眉毛都翘起~~

（ˋ＾ˊ）〉-# 生气（＞﹏＜）不～

x__x, 唉..... 别哭了!

状况外时会发生的情况

(⊙_⊙;)… ○圭~○列~~怎麼酱？ O__O" 呆滞的眼神~~~!!

(+_+)? 不知道你在什麼 o_O??? 发生啥事?

讶异的

（⊙ｏ⊙）目瞪口呆 ★~★ 见到偶像眼睛为之一亮

爱困的

~_~ 想睡觉了的意思!! (～ o ～)~zZ 我想睡啦～

π_π 打瞌睡

表达爱意

(*^‧^*) 啵一个! (^_^)∠※ 送你一束花

‘（*∩_∩*）′ 献上

其他的状况

感动的

~>_<~+ 好感人唷... Q_Q 流眼泪的样子!!

搞笑的咧~!

^/////v///////^ 满脸春风 UoU 没错

~>__<~ 讨厌

\(0.0)/ 岁!! ”◎ 〃大叫

(O^~^O) 幸福 0o。(-. - ) 睡觉

0_0 空洞~~~ p_q 揉眼睛

~w_w~ ... ... 嘘!别吵偶,让偶思考一下!

（vˍv）嗯～，思考中（*>.<*）~ @ 酸～

~`o`~ 了解 ˋ_ˊ* 你不要命啦!!!

-.- 装蒜 ⊙﹏⊙‖∣° 真尴尬～～ ..@_@|||||.. 头昏眼花 …

作者：峰舞冰琴
2006-9-26 11:37 回复此发言

3 回复：可爱的符号表情!~

01. <(￣）￣)> 02. <(￣）￣)/ 03. b(￣▽￣)d 04. 汗(￣口￣)!!

05. ╮(￣▽￣)╭ 06. ╰(￣▽￣)╭ 07. ╮(￣﹏￣)╭ 08. (￣▽￣@)

09. ○(￣﹏￣)○ 10. <(￣oo,￣)/ 11. ╮(￣▽￣")╭ 12. ＾(￣）￣)＾

13. /(￣▽￣)♂ 14. /(￣▽￣)♀ 15. ╭（￣m￣*)╮ 16. ╰(￣▽￣)╯

17. <(@￣）￣@)> 18. 帅(￣▽￣)σ" 19. 羞(#￣▽￣#) 20. （￣Ｑ￣）╯

21. 涨(￣）￣)↗ 22. 跌(┬＿┬)↘ 23. <(￣ c￣)y▂ξ 24. ε(￣□￣)3||

25. ╮(╯▽╰)╭ 26. ╮(╯_╰)╭ 27. ╮(〉_〉")╭ 28. ╰(‘□′)╯

29. （＃－.－）/　30. (）＾）)=凸 31. (((‘□′))怒 32. ╭(—╴—)╮

33. ˋ(′～‘")ˊ 34. ˋ(′o‘")ˊ 35. ˋ(′ε‘")ˊ 36. \(╯▼╰)/
37. ┐(—__—)┌ 38. <(‘^′)>气! 39. ┌(‘▽′)╭ 40. #(┬＿┬)泣!

41. <(￣）￣)> <(￣）￣)><(￣）￣)> 42. <(￣）￣)/<(￣）￣)/<(￣）￣)/
43. 看拳o(╬￣皿￣)=○# (￣#)3￣) 44. K.O <(o一-一)=○# (￣#)3￣)

45. (╯‘□′)╯（ ┴—┴ 翻桌啦! 46. 翻桌啦! ┴—┴ （ ╰(‘□′╰)

47. ╭∩╮(￣▽￣)╭∩╮你有没有搞错! 48. 哼.哼.哼 <(）＾）)_╭∩╮╭∩╮

49. \("▔□▔)/\("▔□▔)/\("▔□▔)/ 50. ~(￣▽￣)~(￣▽￣)~爽到不行~

51. ~(￣3￣)~(〕ε〉)~(￣3￣)~快送医! 52. 无影脚<( ￣^￣)（θ（θ☆( >_<)

53. 笨蛋<( ‘□′)———Cε(┬＿┬)3 54. 夹!<( ‘□′)———C＜—___-)||

55. ╭ (′▽`)╭(′▽`)╭(′▽`)╯Go! 56. ＾(￣）￣)《(￣）￣)＾飞.飞.飞.

57. 凶手!凶手就是你! <(￣﹌￣)@m 58. 我..我..是大猪头╭(﹊∩∩﹊#)╮

59. 来嘛!╮(╯◇╰)╭口禾火～口禾火～ 60. …(⊙_⊙… ○圭~○列~怎麼酱？

61. <(￣oo,￣)/猪头不是一天造成的! 62. ˋ(′o‘")ˊ这个你问我也不知道~

63. 有火星人~ \("▔□▔)/\("▔□▔)/ 64. 不要以为我不知道咩!┌(‘▽′)╭

65. <(￣ c￣)y▂ξ 真烦,来哈根草吧~ 66. 叔叔~这样很冷耶! （＃－.－）/
67. 我是优质大帅哥一枚. \(￣▽￣)♂ 68. ♀(￣▽￣)/ 我是优质大美女一枚.

69. ┐(—__—)┌ 你说我有啥米办法咧~ 70. 吃饱饱，睡好好! ○(*￣）￣*)○

71. 有没有被猪揍过啊? ○(#‘＾′#)○ 72. ε(┬┬＿┬┬)3 我真命苦 ..

73. 拆屋 ┴┴ （╰(‘□′)╯（ ┴┴ 74. 冷到不行 ≡￣﹏￣≡ 冷到不行..

75. <(‘^′)> 我看你还是回火星去好了! 76. <(￣oo,￣)/ 没看过猪哥吗??...

77. <(￣）￣)/ 喜欢吗？把拔买给你～ 78. ＾(￣）￣)＾这学期欧趴欧趴啦～

79. 无影脚升级版 <( ￣^￣)（θ（θ（θ（θ（θ（θ（θ（θ（θ☆( >_<)~啊!

80. 恶魔集团o(‘▽′)ψ 81. ψ(╰_╯)σ‧‧☆咒 82. ψ(￣）￣)ψ(￣）￣)ψ

83. 嘟著嘴 (￣)＾(￣) 84.（⊙ｏ⊙）目瞪口呆 85. \(～__～)/ 要抱抱啦...

86. (＞﹏＜) 不～要～啦 87. （⊙.⊙）a...怎样？ 88. 〒▽〒哇哇～人家不依

89. o(一＾一+)o 怨.念 90. (—.—|||| 很多条线 91. （＃－－）/ 下次小心.

92. 鬼魂团ㄟ(川.一ㄟ) 93. √(—皿—)√ 让我咬　94. (′ 3`)y==~ 人生海海..

95. (￣y▽￣)╭ 唉唷唷~ 96. \(╯-╰)/ 不是我杀的 97. (￣▽￣＃) = ﹏﹏飘走

98. m(_ _)m 大人饶命啊! 99. ╭(′▽`)╭(′▽`)╯(让咱们一起奔向夕阳吧...)

如果你的女人猫性消失了、说明她要离开你了

2009-07-21T15:27:00.001-07:00

我的一个女朋友上自习，太凉了、

　　她发短信让男朋友去送衣服给她，男孩打游戏拒绝了、

　　这件事让她郁闷了两天然后气消了、

　　虽然是件小事，不会影响两人以后，但是她说、

　　她会记住，以后自习一定会带衣服、

　　如果哪天忘记了，即使冷死，也不再会叫他送、

　、

　　我很能明白这种感觉、

、

不久以前，一个女孩某天夜里、

　　心情特别低落，特别想念某个人的安慰、

　　然后半夜时分，打电话给他，很想听他说话、

　　电话那头，被拒接的提示声、

　　从此以后，她再没有伤心无助时给他打过电话、

、

　　那段时间慢慢建立起来的小小的依赖，也顿时，崩溃、

　　开始有意识地不再去想起，不再去关注，不再去、

、

　　喜欢与不喜欢其实并没有什么界限、

　　有的时候是因为自己故意去忽略了很多、

　　潜意识里便抗拒了别人，也拒绝了自己、

　、

、

　　我发现女人身上有一种猫性、

　　小猫在撒娇或者做错事的时候，需要别人的安慰和教导、

　　如果这时主人打击了它，它会狠狠记住，不会再犯、

　　女人，有着猫一样的自尊、

　　特别是陷入爱情里的女人、

　、

　　、

　、

　　在别人看来无关紧要，其实需要呵护，因为爱，已经让她的心变得柔软、

　　她的这一点自尊，其实是要你对她的在乎、

　、

　　我看过一句特别经典的话、

　　有时候女人需要一个男人，就像逃机者需要降落伞、

　　如果此时此刻他不在，那么以后他也不必在了、

　　、

　、

　　真的，就是这样。是啊是啊、

　　如果哪天猫咪用坚定的眼神看着你说我可以的时候、

　　那么猫咪已经做好了离开的准备了、

　　女人是要独立，但是独立到不再会对你不讲道理的撒娇任性、

　　不再会无厘头的缠着你、

如果你的女人猫性消失了、说明她要离开你了、　　你觉得你对于她同路人还有多大区别呢、

　　、

　、

　　女人的猫性不是每个男人都有幸看到的、

　　因为喜欢你，在意你才对你发出特有的咕噜噜声、

　　其他人只能听到猫喵喵叫、

　　而这一声咕噜噜只是为你而生、

　　有几个人会明白呢？

祝我生日快乐

2009-07-21T11:20:00.001-07:00

“那你忙吧，不打扰你了。。。” (zz)

2009-07-11T18:58:00.000-07:00

其实我真的很讨厌这句话

这个虽不是出自我的手笔，但是与我产生了共鸣

这句话真的好让人心酸

把它变成日志永久的收藏在这里吧，感谢作者

那你忙吧，不打扰了。

其实我真的很讨厌这句话
可是它总在不停的说给我听和被我说出
真的有在忙吗
手的停歇还是心的厌烦
你的忙还是我的忙

来讨论下吧

说的人是感受到被冷落了的赌气还是识趣的退避呢
听到的人会觉得心的迅速低落还是如释重负的一笑呢
我，都有过吧

有时候还会为彼时幼稚的猜测而情绪很差
我始终无法很好的控制自己的情绪
有时会让你们觉得累吧

还是那句话
如果你说了
是怀着怎样的心情讲的呢
如果你听到了
又是怎样接受这样一个回复的呢
可能也是很平常的聊天来往
有时的不平常也只是和你正在交流的那个人给你的特殊感觉吧

其实
当你听到这句话时
可能想不到是她此刻做的最后博弈
她想要你的挽留赌上一个猜测
来继续这场对话
而不是你的坦然离开

如果知道你忙又怎会和你分享心情呢
如果知道你忙她为什么不是直接的再见呢
如果你们是彼此了解的话
是你想要逃离了吧
却用了她替你找的借口

你去忙吧我不打扰你了
如果哪一天我这样说了
请挽留我
告诉我你不忙
而别说
那我去了
可以吗
我根本不想你忙
抑或是
其实我希望你在忙着回我的消息

而当你打下这些字的时候
你可能想不到她听了会觉得你在烦她
她要一个更好的理由你的理由
来结束这次的谈话
而不是你敷衍的她在忙
如果忙又怎会迅速的回复你呢
如果忙她为什么不自己说呢
如果你们是彼此在乎的话
是你自己心累了吧
却展示自己的宽容
你去忙吧我不打扰你了

如果你有哪天不想跟我聊了
请找个自己的理由具体的理由
而别说
你去忙吧
好吗

我一点也不忙
或者说
其实我在忙着等你的消息。。。

情歌

2009-07-09T08:42:00.000-07:00

时光是琥珀泪一滴滴被反锁情书在不朽淹没成沙漏
青春的上游白云飞走
藏够雨还有闪过的念头潺潺地流走

命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

慢动作缱绻胶卷重播默片定格一瞬间
我们在告别的演唱会说好不再见

你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏可是那然后呢

还好我有我这一首情歌轻轻地轻轻哼著
哭著笑著我的天长地久

命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

长镜头越来越远越来越远时隔好几年
我们在怀念的演唱会礼貌地吻别

你写给我我的第一首歌你和我十指紧扣
默写前奏可是那然后呢

还好我有我这一首情歌轻轻地轻轻哼著
哭著笑著我的天长地久

陪我唱歌清唱你的情歌
捨不得短短副歌心还热著也该告一段落

还好我有我下一首情歌是你宛如轻轻地相拥的河永远天长地久

「我的31歲」串寫 ─ 給妳的遺書 (zz自yvonne的blog)

2009-07-06T07:50:00.000-07:00

「我的31歲」串寫 ─ 給妳的遺書

2009/06/22 by yvonne, ting yu

昨晚聽著嘩啦啦的雨聲，和雨中的The Album Leaf，直到了清晨，這個故事一直在腦海中盤旋，於是寫下。

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給妳的遺書

在傾盆大雨中依著燭光，看著樹葉屋頂漏下的雨滴，雙手滿溢溫熱鮮血的我，在永恆到來的前夕，又想起了妳。

我活在這個鐵絲網裡的世界，算算明天就將進入第二十一個年頭了。我清楚明白外面世界的人們是怎麼看著我的：難民，難民，難民，一個掙扎著活在泰緬邊境難民營裡，什麼都沒有的孤獨女人。經常我甚至想著，到底我還是不是能夠擁有成為一個人的資格？

二十年前，當我還是十歲大的女孩的時候，我的家還在緬甸東部，靠近薩爾溫江(Salween River)的山裡。在天還未亮的時候，睡夢中的我經常被咚咚咚的搗米聲給吵醒，母親總是先起床搗完了米，然後帶著我，走路到另一個山頭上的田裡勞作。但其實我喜歡去餵雞，雞媽媽總會帶著成群小雞讓我追著跑，我和小雞們跑阿跑的，也不知跑了多遠，印象中我最後總能在叢林中認出回家的路，不曾迷路過。那時候的我還不懂，如果不辛勤的種著這些稻子，乞求天上的雨水充足，包含我們家在內的整個克倫(Karen)村子，就得要挨餓過日子了。

我記得妳總是笑笑的對我說，難民營裡的雞群們，和以前在緬甸家鄉的比起來，營裡的個個都肥滋滋，跑的又慢吞吞的。這也沒有辦法，營裡根本沒有空間讓牠們暢快的奔跑呀，經常鄰居們還會為了搞不清誰是誰的雞而爭吵不休。

妳們家裡的那隻名叫做三一的斑點小雞，不知道她現在是不是也長成一樣肥滋滋的母雞了呢？那時妳說我是我家排行老大，妳是妳家老三，所以這隻小雞要叫做三一，還不能叫做一三，因為，妳是我的老大，所以三要放在一的前面。我聽著，不禁笑了出來。是呀，妳一直都是我心中的老大。

明天，我就要滿了三十一歲，明天，妳就要在寒冷的挪威嫁做人妻。我沒有忘記過去年妳即將離開邊境上的難民營，前往挪威展開新生活前夕，對我說的這一段話：

「實在太苦了，我沒有像妳一樣的勇氣，我們的生活中，一切一切，都不允許我和妳之間的感情。記得嗎？那次夜半營裡的大火，燒光了幾百戶相連的竹屋，我慌張的在人群中跑著，妳慌張的在人群中找到了我，忘情的擁抱了我。我們彼此擁抱著。那是我一生都不會忘記的擁抱。那也是我家族決心將我送走的證據。」

我手腕上的絲絲鮮血，把妳親手替我繫上的紅繩子，給染的更是艷紅了。那溫熱的感覺，猶如夜半妳用指尖滑過我的頸，到胸口，那樣的放縱溫柔。老者不是說，我們克倫孩子的手腕，必定要在那繫腕的節日，被繫上繩子，象徵老者的祝福嗎？有了老者的祝福後，我們會有很多的米飯，有很幸福的人生和未來。

但是我真的很想要問，為什麼我連愛一個人的權利都沒有？為什麼在人們的眼中，我是一個不貞潔的女人？為什麼我必定只能為男人獻身呢？千萬個為什麼我都抵擋的了，就是抵擋不過妳的絕決。

已經這樣子愛著妳多久了？印象中，是從我還是十歲的小女孩時，不過那時候，我並不知道，這是愛。在某個夜晚，緬甸軍隊的槍聲無情掃入我們家鄉的時刻，妳與我一起，牽著小手，死命的奔跑，我們跑過了一座又一座的山丘，隨著其他的人們，又餓又累，好多人在途中病倒、被地雷炸傷而死去。半個月後，我和妳與妳的家人，到了泰國邊境上的村落，這裡也有很多的克倫人，雖然他們說的克倫語和我們的有些不同，有時要仔細聽才會懂，我們依舊在這裡待了下來。

從那時開始，我沒再看過母親。這些年來，總感覺我的母親一直陪在我的身邊，我在靜謐的夜晚，告訴她所有我為愛承受的一切，我想她是唯一支持著我的力量。她一直都聽我說，在我的愛情路上，一直陪伴著我的妳；在妳我距離只有一毫米時刻的臉紅心跳；在千萬里的距離之外，妳對我傾訴的脆弱相思。

明天的妳，將會是最美麗的新娘，不知妳會不會穿上那屬於我們克倫的傳統白色Chimmuwa呢？那象徵純潔，長及腳裸的手作綿服，我曾替妳作了好幾件。我好希望能夠再見上妳一面，看著妳穿著純白的Chimmuwa，再親手為妳擦上淡淡的樹粉、抿上紅紙上的嫣紅。只有看見妳的美，我才有資格，讓自己再度美麗起來。

還記得那個跟妳一樣年紀的台灣女孩yvonne嗎？她曾冒著被警察和軍隊逮捕的風險，載著我們兩個人，到營外的山裡頭，看看不一樣的風景。我還清楚記得妳大叫著說，好自由的感覺，好新鮮的空氣。妳呼喊著想要離開難民營，看看外面的世界。誰不想呢？

妳告訴我妳根本不想要離開我，妳還是離開了；妳告訴我妳愛的是我，妳還是要出嫁了；妳告訴我這個世界上的美好事物還有很多，可惜我無法從難民營裡的鐵絲網窺見我的未來；妳告訴我在遠方國度的妳，好寒冷。

於是我想著，就讓我的血液，揉和著妳最愛的我的長髮，千絲萬縷，糾纏著一顆溫熱的心，在明天，給妳當作最後的禮物吧。妳將不會知道。

此刻的我，模糊看著手中我們唯一在營裡的合照，是那和妳一樣小我三歲的台灣女孩後來給我的照片。她來看我，給我照片的時候，笑著問了我，妳在哪裡呢？我笑著搖頭，沒有回答她。

她在照片中捕捉到的，是我們距離不到一毫米的親暱。那是好美麗的期盼，妳還記得嗎？

明天，妳將永別我而去，這是我給妳的遺書。愛妳永恆。

比安妮写的更好的是柏邦尼--写给女孩们（zz from HX‘s blog)

2009-06-27T09:13:00.001-07:00

你必须找到除了爱情之外，能够使你用双脚坚强站在大地上的东西。你要找到谋生的方式，最重要是能让自己开心的方式，现在考虑不晚了。你必须把那些浮如飘絮的思绪，渐渐转化为清晰的思路和简单的文字。华丽和漂浮都不易长久，你要知道，给予文字阅读快感不够的，内容、思想、境界、灵魂、精神和智慧，这些才重要。

不要多看那些和你一个路数的女作家的文字。不要琐碎，无病呻吟。不要想到什么就写。不要流于小感伤和小感动。我要你相信温暖、美好、信任、尊严、坚强这些老掉牙的字眼。我不要你颓废、空虚、迷茫、糟践自己、伤害别人。我不要你把自己处理得一团糟。

节制自己的感情。不是任何人都能要。体验生活，是另外一回事，并不意味着堕落和放纵。千万不要认同那些伪装的酷和另类。他们是无事可做的人找出来放任自己无事可做的借口。真正的酷是在内心。你要有强大的内心。要有任凭时间流逝，不会磨折和屈服的信念。不是因为在象牙塔中，才说出我爱世界这样的话。是知道外面的黑、脏、丑陋之后，还要说出这样的话。好好去爱，去生活。青春如此短暂，不要叹老。偶尔可以停下来休息，但是别蹲下来张望。走了一条路的时候，记得别回头看。

伤心和委屈的时候，要嚎啕大哭，哭完洗洗脸，拍一拍，挤出一个微笑给自己看。不要揉，否则第二天早上会眼睛肿。

给自己一个远大的前程和目标。记得常常仰望天空，尤其是晚上清澈的星空。记住仰望天空的时候也看看脚下。

不要相信在恋爱上用手段的人。分手时不要口出恶言。吸取教训，但不要后悔。后悔没有用。别干撕照片、烧信、撕日记这样一类三流爱情电视剧中才有人干的事。如果真的有什么想要忘记的话就随它去吧。不在乎自然就会遗忘。

相信爱情，相信好男人在茫茫人海中终会寻觅到你。

找不到答案的事情就不要再想，不要自己给自己忧伤的陷阱。

不可以恨这个世界。因为你那么爱它它不会让你失望的。

爱物质，适当地。永远知道精神更重要。比那些名表、名牌、时装，更加美丽的是你自己。再精致的妆容也比不上健康纯真的微笑。
别瞧不起劳动人民，不要为劳动羞耻。土地不脏，汗味也不难闻。请尊重那些似乎生活状况不如你的人，因为这样才是尊重自己。永远体恤那些生活在底层的人们，因为我们的亲人就是在这些人群中。我们不娇贵。

不要小看一分钱。不妨自己去挣挣看。

被朋友伤害了的时候，别怀疑友情，但提防背叛你的人。原谅，但并不遗忘。做人存几分天真童心，对朋友保持一些侠义之情。

有小心机的女生是可爱的，但别把这种心计用在勾心斗角上，那样会很累。

喜欢不喜欢不是嘴说就能证明什么，因为它存在于我们的内心。纵使嘴里说“不喜欢”并不能阻挡爱本身。所以有些事情不要去强求说出口才行的话语。

做人不要太高调，高调容易招惹是非。但也不能太低调，该强悍时则强悍，但切不可咄咄逼人。

同情那些比你可怜弱小的人，乐于助人，永远心存善念，怜悯，会使你高贵。

宽待自己，也宽待别人。当你不会因为小小的不如意小小的事而生气或难过的时候，你会轻松很多。

要原谅这世界和自己。要告诉自己，我值得拥有最好的一切。

要快乐，要开朗，要坚韧，要温暖，这和性格无关。

I cannot resist harp!!

2009-05-06T11:23:00.000-07:00

T_T

持续更新中

2009-05-06T09:37:00.000-07:00

贴一些我觉得很有feel的朋友的照片

姓名隐去
被贴的人请见谅

2009-05-03T13:49:00.000-07:00

不要觉得不了解也会有爱情。
　　　　　　
　　　　在不了解的时候，我们仅仅是喜欢，达不到爱情。
　　　　
　　　　当彼此的缺点暴露出来以后，很多时候这喜欢也就会结束了。
　　　　
　　　爱是宽容，爱着彼此的一切。
　　　　　
　　　　　爱上不了解的人，或许，你爱的只是他的新奇罢了。

2009-04-06T18:16:00.000-07:00

張懸－微光

微光
緩緩的陽光尋找焦點的身影
隱隱的聲音迴盪記憶裡的空

人在風裡飄著在時間的無盡裡走過
愛是片片散落在永恆的無言中錯過

淚冷了夢死了靜謐是一個遠方
雨灑了天垮了心泛著光

人在風裡飄著在時間的無盡裡走過
愛是片片散落在永恆的無言中錯過

淚冷了夢死了靜謐是一個遠方
雨灑了天垮後心泛著光

爱是黑夜里的光

2009-04-06T18:11:00.000-07:00

空荡荡的车站空荡荡的心上
那最晚的一班车终点是不是幸福
当风吹起一张破碎的地图
伸出了手却抓不住
爱是黑夜里的光多么温暖的光亮
隐隐约约就在某个地方谁让我迷了路
爱是黑夜里的光忽远忽近在前方
一步一步跟着你忘了想可是我并不在乎
听风里的流言我从来不问你
难道你都不明白我心里有多痛苦
深深的拥抱而泪水已模糊
我只要这一刻的幸福
别说怕伤害我来掩饰你的软弱
说出你真的想说爱不爱我
爱是黑夜里的光温暖的光亮
爱是黑夜里的光当我在爱情徜徉
一步一步跟着你忘了想也许最后要为爱而受伤
可是我不在乎也许我真并不在乎

单身旅记

2009-04-02T20:03:00.000-07:00

我与爱情都是一脸惺忪未醒
躺卧床上共同享用一份空寂
阳光碎成细纹穿透百叶窗帘
我再也不能抵挡心头那种撞击
背起行囊我要去远远方
远的可以把过去遗忘
我不需要很确定的方向
我只要这段旅程够长
舍不得一程一程的纠葛
舍不得日甚一日的狂热
我与爱情都是一脸浮躁游离
呆坐车上共同饱餐一份孤寂
大雨裂成水滴爬满无色玻璃
我再也不能忍受命运机率游戏
背起行囊我要去远远方
远的可以把过去遗忘
我不需要很飘渺的天堂
我只要眼前风景如画
舍不得一程一程的纠葛
舍不得日甚一日的萧瑟
舍不得一程一程的纠葛
舍不得日甚一日的狂热

Touch

2009-03-24T10:22:00.000-07:00

2009-03-24T10:05:00.000-07:00

如果时间能倒回
我们相遇那一天

多希望

我们没遇见

Wish you peace, Chieko

2009-03-19T13:48:00.000-07:00

It is with great sorrow that we tell you of the unexpected passing of a dear and valued colleague. Chieko Kittaka was found deceased in her apartment last night. Through her involvement with NASA's CALIPSO team and airborne field programs, Chieko was a much-loved and highly respected member of our community who will be remembered for her contributions as well as her warm and energetic presence.

人真的是可以这么容易死掉的
就好像昨天还看到Chieko满脸笑容讲话讲的手舞足蹈
听到她说之后我们要做这个做那个
笑嘻嘻的甩着长发好像跃动的舞蹈

一个独在异乡的年轻女人
热烈的生命
短暂的一生
消逝之前应该是快乐的吧
我从来没在她脸上读到过悲伤

希望她走过的人生是无畏的
至少没人发现她曾经软弱
希望离世于她来说是快乐的
至少没人知道她曾经痛苦
希望她不会如我一般不愿再来
至少她不曾惧怕过伴她离去的孤独

活着的每一天，都要朝着理想前进一步

Chieko, 愿你在天堂幸福

在威尼斯迷路

2009-03-19T11:11:00.001-07:00

2009-03-18T20:10:00.000-07:00

插曲

如果满足如可满足如若要催毁我眉目而我极痛而你未痛但实际只当是节目如果我哭如真要哭难道要开口说屈服纯粹动作未料有风是否因此拼命歪曲 i wanna fly! i wanna cry! 愈去隐藏愈要破坏如我愉快完美状态才令你存敌意破坏如果了解心中不快问你可曾为我伟大人太倦了请你谅解求能让我此后愉快明知揭盅仍加插曲还未算真的最残酷如继续痛求再别碰事实你早已下了毒离开退缩澄清接触谁料你一早已辑录寻我脉膊为什快速未知这是致命插曲谁人愿痛完又痛再追逐公演过目谁人又注意我不快来回场合总要被曲解

错过

2009-03-18T11:08:00.000-07:00

以为只看小说
就能看到爱的颜色
这算是什麽生活
我们留在自己的沙漠
开始魂不守舍
等待时间流过
如果你像天气
总对我不冷也不热
我不能选择沉默
爱情只是个泡沫
脆弱的一戳即破
你要好好把握
错过我们都有过错
在幸福的角落
还要再奢求什麽
直到一天
遗憾开出它的花朵
谁都会明白
从前才是最快乐
错过上天都有过错
创造悲欢离合
要我们承担结果
每一个人是另一个人的景色
在寂寞的时候
什麽比爱更赤裸裸

如果你像天气
总对我不冷也不热
我不能选择沉默
爱情只是个泡沫
脆弱的一戳即破
你要好好把握
错过我们都有过错
在幸福的角落
还要再奢求什麽
直到一天
遗憾开出它的花朵
谁都会明白
从前才是最快乐
错过上天都有过错
创造悲欢离合
要我们承担结果
每一个人是另一个人的景色
曾经停过多久很值得
错过上天都有过错
创造悲欢离合
要我们承担结果
每一个人是另一个人的景色
在寂寞的时候
什麽比爱更赤裸裸
在寂寞的时候
什麽比爱更赤裸裸

2009-03-02T17:33:00.000-08:00

前几天在彭彭的blog里看到关于鸡头和凤尾的讨论，想起从前自己也这么矛盾过，可是到今天才明白自己什么都算不上，只是一个outlier而已

对不起
请允许我
再说一次对不起

对不起
请原谅我
让我一个人失忆

可以告诉我为什么吗
你明明知道
我是一个毫无办法管束的野孩子
但我会成为你最听话的一个女子
我不会朝朝暮暮让你猜想如何驯服我
若我依然坚持忠诚
你是不是
必需有这结果才能怀念我
让我於荒野驰骋
原来我连没有幸福都不介意

在伤害和被伤害中懂得
有人等我有人爱我
某一种未来适合我
爱情是礼物
送到很远之後
被邀请的我

有人忘了有人哭了
哪一种未来可以拍手
回忆是节目
一秒一幕幸福
我还在半路
明天再说

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希望你幸福
希望
爱我的人
和
我爱的人
就这样一直幸福下去

旋爱

2008-09-21T09:26:00.001-07:00

一个１２年的同学＋好朋友分手了
她自己，她的朋友，认识他们的人都没能猜到这个结局
谁都以为他们能幸福的过一辈子
谁都没想到对她无微不至的他
会在灿烂的５年后
把爱全给了另一个人

她很相信星座
她很相信测试里说的－
＂一辈子只会真爱一个人＂
‘只是可惜，这份爱已经过去了’－她说

如果
只是如果
和她有着同样的星座和血型的我
注定一生只能爱一个人
是不是
我们的故事也只是生命中灿烂的焰火？
或者
如果只是做梦
醒来以后请让我失忆
请给我一个　会让我微笑的结果

irresponsible

2008-08-06T13:53:00.000-07:00

暖暖阳光懒懒爬进窗
悠悠微醺淡淡咖啡香
恍然你又在身旁
笑容星一样明亮
打开故事书翻到下一页

你说云落泪了风会吹干它
可是风叹息又怎么安慰呢
你说就随它去吧
叫我如何放得下

候鸟会不会停留
一生算不算太久
未来有没有尽头
够不够带我走

只想抱着你的背脊不想放
为何美的东西总叫人悲伤
只怕你每次转身
我都以为看见明天的艳阳

如果爱上你只是一个梦境
醒来后又该如何重新睡去

如果失去记忆
能否再一见钟情
能否再一见钟情

La vie en rose

2008-07-15T15:06:00.000-07:00

你会怕死吗？
我更害怕孤独

馬祖匹祖高地

2008-02-26T10:48:00.000-08:00

１
從風到風，向一張虛空的網
我穿過街道與大氣，來了又去，
跟著秋天的君臨的葉子們四處流傳的
新幣，以及在春天與玉蜀黍間，
裝在一隻下降的手套，那最偉大的愛——
像被拉長的月亮——所遞送給我們的。

（屍體狂暴的氣候裏燦爛
鮮活的日子：鋼轉變成
酸的寂靜：
夜磨損，直至最後的粉粒：
婚禮之土受襲擊的雄蕊。）

在提琴堆裏等候我的那人
他碰到了一個像埋在地下的塔一樣的世界，
螺線沉陷到有著粗澀
硫磺顏色的眾葉之下：
而甚至要更下去，在地質學的黃金裏，
像一把藉著流星為鞘的刺刀
我沉下我狂暴溫柔的手
直逼地物最深最深的生殖器。

在深不可測的潮流裡停靠額頭，
我潛沒如被硫磺的平靜所圍繞的一滴，
並且，像一個盲人，回歸我們
衰竭的人類春天的茉莉。

２
如果花把珍貴的種籽丟棄給花
而岩石把它的粉衣播撒在一件
瘀傷的鑽石與沙的外衣裏，
人就把他從海特定的泉源裏拾取的
光的花瓣壓縐，
並且鑚打那在他手中悸動著的金屬。
而很快地，帶著衣飾與煙，在沉沒水中的桌上，
像搞混了的量，靈魂依舊存在：
石英與無眠，大海裡
冷潭一般的眼淚：但即使在那時候——
摧毀它，用紙與仇恨鼓舞它的死亡，
在習性的地毯裡悶死它，在敵視的
鐵絲的外衣裡扯裂它。

不：誰（彷若血紅的罌粟）能手無寸鐵地護衛
他的血液通過這些走道，天空，
海洋或者公路？憤怒已經把
買賣生物的商人他悲傷的貨品揮霍光了，
而在梅樹的頂顛，有一千年
露珠把透明的地圖留給了期待的
樹枝：啊心，啊在秋天的
洞窟間破碎的額頭。

有多少次在冬天城市的街上或者
巴士上或者黃昏的船上或者狂歡夜
更稠密的孤獨裡，在陰影的聲音，
在鐘聲，在人類喜悅真正的洞穴裡，
我渴望能逗留，能尋找那隱藏在
石頭或者吻的閃電裡，我一度觸及的永恆且神秘的血脈。

（那在麥中，像一則隆起小乳房的
黃色故事，重複敘說著一個
在肥沃的土壤裡無限溫柔的號碼的，
以及那，永遠相同的，在象牙中褪殼的：
以及那在水中半透明的家鄉，那從
孤雪直到血波的一口鐘。）

我只能抓到一串臉孔或者墮落的
面具，彷彿一環環中空的黃金，
彷彿散落的衣裳，那叫可憐的樹族恐懼戰慄的
凶暴的秋天的女兒。

沒有地方來安置我的手，沒有地方——
流動像帶鏈的春泉，或者
堅實如煤或水晶的硬塊——
能夠回應我張開的手的熱或冷。
人是什麼？在他打開的話匣的哪一角，雜著
店鋪和笛聲，在他金屬性運動的哪一環
存在著不可破壞、不可毀滅的，生命？

３
存在，如同玉蜀黍脫粒，在儲放
挫敗經歷和不幸事件的無盡的
穀倉，從一到七，到八
而每個人有著的不只是一個死，而是許多的死：
每一天的小死亡，那在郊外爛泥中自我滅絕的
塵、蛆、燈，每一天的小死亡都帶著肥胖的翅翼，
短矛一般闖進了每一個人，
而人被麵包與小刀所圍攻，
養牛人：港口的浪子，黑皮膚的農耕隊長，
或者鬧區裡的一隻老鼠：

他們都在等候死亡，在等候每日短暫死亡的同時軟弱了：
而他們不祥的苦難每日都是一只
他們必須顫抖地喝著黑茶杯。

４
好多次強大的死亡誘引著我：
它正像隱形於海波的鹽，
而它隱形的氣味所散佈的
正像一半一半的窪地與高地，
或者風和雪堆所構築的巨大的殿堂。
我來到鐵的邊緣，來到窄隘的
空中走道，來到農作物與石頭的屍衣，
來到無路可走的星際的真空，
以及令人暈眩的渦狀的大道：
但，巨大的海，啊死！你並非一波一波地來到，
而是夜曲般澄亮的急馳，
或者像夜絕對的詩歌。

你從來不曾藏在我們的口袋偷偷地過來干涉，你的
到訪終必有著一件猩紅的外衣，
一張八方肅靜的曙光的地毯，
或者一筆入祀或入土的淚的遺產。

我無法愛那存在於每一生命之內的樹，
一旦它微小的秋天在肩上（一千片葉子的死亡），
所有那些假的死與復活——
而不想到大地，不想到深淵：
我期望在最浩闊的生命裡游泳，
在最澎湃洶湧的出海口。
而當，逐漸地，人們開始否定我，對我
閉絕他們的門路令我散發活力的手無法
碰觸他們受傷的內在，
我乃一街一街，一河一河，
一城一城，一床一床地走著，
我滲雜鹽味的面具穿越過沙漠，
而在最後一個受辱的村落，沒有燈，沒有火，
沒有麵包，沒有石頭，沒有安靜，我
獨自流浪，死著自己的死。

５
那村落貧苦的子嗣在饑餓的體內
狼吞虎嚥的食物裡所延續的不是
你，啊陰暗的死亡，鐵羽毛的鳥：
相反的，那是舊繩腐朽了的一根線，
是不曾打鬥過的乳房的一粒原子，
或者不曾掉落到額頭的粗澀的露水。
是那無法被再生的，沒有和平
沒有領土的小死亡的碎片：
一塊骨頭，一陣在自己體內死去的教堂中鐘聲。
我解下碘酒的繃帶，把我的手探進
那正摧殺著死亡的不幸的疼痛，
而我什麼也沒碰到，除了自靈魂的隙縫
溜進來的一陣風。

６
我跟著登上地的階梯，
穿過失去的叢林野蠻的糾纏
走向你，馬祖匹祖。
巍峨的梯石之城，
那不曾被大地的睡衣遮藏之人
終於擁有的住所。
在你身上，彷彿兩條平行的直線，
閃電以及人的搖籃
在荊棘的風中擺盪。

石頭之母，兀鷹的泡沫。

人類黎明高為的暗礁。

埋葬於原始沙層的鋤頭。

這是舊巢，這是新居：
這裡玉蜀黍豐實的穀粒高高躍起
又像紅雹一樣射下來。

這裡金黃的纖維自駝馬身上剝下，
覆蓋愛，墳墓，母親，
國，禱詞，勇士。

這裡入夜之後人腳與鷹爪
同棲於高大血污的
獸穴，並且在清晨
以雷電的步履行走於精純的霧上，
並且碰觸土地與石頭
直到他們在夜裏，在死亡裏認出他們。
我注視著衣服與手，
注視著回聲的洞穴裏的水跡，
注視著那被，借我的眼睛觀看
地上的燈籠，借我的手替
滅跡的木頭敷油的臉龐，所磨平的
一面牆：因為一切的東西，衣飾，髮膚，容器，
語字，酒，麵包，
都消失，墮落到泥土裏。
而大氣湧進，它
橘花的手指撫過所有入眠的事物：
一千年的大氣，月月週週的大氣，
一千年蔚藍的風，一千年鐵的山脈，
彷彿腳步們溫柔的颶風
磨亮著孤獨的石頭區域。

７
獨一深淵最冷暗的部份，溪谷，最深溪谷的
陰影，那正是何以真實
最灼燙的死會來到你
數量的空間，
並且自打孔的岩石，
猩紅的飛簷
以及層列的水道，
你像在秋天一般地滾進
單一的死。
今天空虛的風不再哭泣，
不再認識你的泥腳：
它已經忘掉那
當閃電的刀叉亂割
而巨樹被霧所吞噬，被狂風砍倒時
濾清天空的你的大水罐。
它扶起一隻從高崗遽然跌落到
時間的盡頭的手。
你們已不再存在，蜘蛛之手，虛弱的
線縷，糾纏的網：
一切都已離散崩潰了：習俗，破碎的
音節，眩眼的光之面具。

只剩下石頭與字的永恆：
城彷彿一隻杯子被每一隻活著，
死著，沉默著的手舉起，被如此多的死
所支撐，有著如此多生的一面牆，
石之花瓣的砍擊：永生不死的玫瑰，住所：
這冰河殖民地的安底斯岩脈。
當土色的手變成
真正的泥土，而當微小的眼睫闔上，
滿載粗糙的牆，滿載著城堡：
而當人類亂陳於他們的地獄，
旗一般開展的精確仍舊存在；
人類黎明的高地：
包含寂靜的最高的容器：
繼無數多生命存在的石頭的生命。

８
請隨我攀登，亞美利加之愛。

隨我親吻秘密的石塊。
烏魯班巴銀白的激流
使花粉飛到它的金杯。
空虛的藤蔓，
石化的植物，僵硬的花環，
翱翔於山中寶庫的靜寂之上！

來吧，微小的生命，從大地的
翅翼間，同時——晶瑩而冰涼，被鎚薄的空氣
引出遭襲擊的翡翠——
野蠻的水啊，你也從雪來到了。

愛，愛，直到突然的夜；
從宏亮的安底斯山的燧石，
直到黎明的紅膝蓋，
默想那盲眼的雪之子吧！

哦，響亮威嚴的威卡馬右，
當你打你世襲的雷聲打碎成
白色的泡沫，像受傷的雪，
當你陡峭的狂風
歌唱且鞭打震醒天界，
你把哪一種語言帶給一隻幾乎不曾自
你安底斯泡沫斷根的耳朵？

誰抓住冰冷的閃電
並且任它深愛著高地，
在它冰結的淚珠間被均分，
在飛刀上顫抖，
錘打著它身經百戰的結構，
引導向它勇士的床榻，
驚愕於它岩石的結局？

你苦惱的閃光在說些什麼？
你秘密反叛的閃電可曾一度
滿載著語字旅行？
在你細瘦的動脈水流裡，

誰能粉碎凍結的音節，
黑色的語言，金黃的旗幟，
無底的嘴巴，被抑制的叫喊？

誰在四處切取那些
生自泥中為我們守望的花的眼瞼？
誰在投擲那些從你滂沱的
手中墜下的死滅的精子群，
為了將他們被猛打的夜播撒在
地質學的煤裡？

是誰拋棄這些誓約的樹枝？
誰，容我再一次問，埋葬了這些告別？
愛，愛，不要碰觸界線，
也不要崇拜沉沒水中的頭顱：
讓時間在它破碎的泉源的大廳裡
完成它的雕像，
並且在急流與壁壘間蒐集
自峽谷來之大氣，
平行的風的被褥，
山脈盲目的運河，
露水粗暴的問候；
並且爬吧，一朵花接一朵花地，穿過厚度，
踐踏那被扔棄的蛇。

在這鋸齒狀的地帶——石頭與森林，
綠色星星之塵，明亮的叢林——
曼吐爾谷爆發如活湖泊，
或找一片寂靜的新平原。
來到我真正的本體吧，來到我的黎明，
直達加冕的孤獨。
死去的王國仍舊活著。

而鐘座上，兀鷹血污的陰影
像一艘黑船穿過。

９
星座之鷹，霧的葡萄園。
失去的稜堡，盲目的彎刀。
星綴的帶子，神聖的麵包。
急流的階梯，巨大的眼瞼。
三角狀的膜，石之花粉。
花崗岩的燈，石之麵包。
礦物般的蛇，石之玫瑰。
入土的船隻，石之泉源。
月的馬匹，石之亮光。
赤道的象限，石之蒸汽。
絕對的地理，石之書籍。
雕在狂風中的冰山。
湮沒的時光的珊瑚。
被手指磨平的堡壘。
被羽毛攻擊的屋脊。
鏡之串集，風暴之基石。
被匍匐的藤草推翻的王座。
血爪的政權。
在斜坡上被停住的強風。
靜止的綠藍色的瀑布。
安眠者族長般的鐘。
臣服之雪的衣領。
沿著它的雕像被拉長的鐵。
緊閉而無法進入的風暴。
獅之手腳，嗜血的石頭。
陰暗之塔，雪的辯論。
高舉於手指、根莖之上的夜，
霧的窗戶，冷酷之鴿。
夜間活動的植物，霹靂的雕像。
實在的山脈，海上的屋頂。
迷失之鷹的建築。
天空的繩索，絕頂之蜜蜂。
血污的水平面，高築之屋。
礦物之泡沫，花崗岩的月。
安底斯山之蛇，萈紫的額頭。
寂靜之圓頂，純淨的祖國。
海的新娘，大教堂之樹。
鹽的結晶，黑翼的櫻桃樹。
雪的牙齒，冰冷的雷聲。
抓傷的月，險惡的石頭。
毛髮冰冷之頭，大氣之動作。
手之火山，陰鬱的瀑布。
銀之波浪，時間的目的地。

１０
石頭之內是石頭，而人在哪裡？
大氣之內是大氣，而人在哪裡？
時間之內是時間，而人在哪裡？
你是否也是非完整的人類破裂的
斷片，是經由今日的
街衢，經由足跡，經由死寂的秋的葉子
把靈魂錘打進墳墓裡的
空心的鷹的斷片？
悲慘的手，腳，悲慘的生命……
那些暗鈍的日子——
在你體內，像洒在節慶的
短矛之上的雨，
它們可曾一瓣一瓣地給空虛的嘴
它們暗黑的營養？
　　　　　　　饑餓，人的珊瑚，
饑餓，秘密的植物，伐木者的根，
啊饑餓——你羅列的暗礁可曾
攀登到這些鬆散的塔上？

我要問你，路上的鹽，
給我看看鏝子。允許我，建築樹，
用一根小樹枝磨滅石頭的雄蕊，
允許我爬過一切大氣的梯級到達空虛，
刮削生命的要害直到我觸及人。

馬祖匹祖，你是否把
石頭置於石頭之內，而破布，在基礎裡？
把煤置於黃金之內，而在它裡面，血液的
紅雨滴在顫抖？
把你所埋葬過的奴隸還給我吧！
把窮人的硬麵包從這土地上
抖出來，讓我看看農奴的
衣服跟窗戶。
告訴我他活著的時候怎麼個睡法，
告訴我他睡覺是不是帶著
刺耳的聲音，張大嘴巴，像因疲倦而
凹進牆壁的一個黑色的破洞。
牆壁，牆壁！如果每一層石頭
壓在他的睡眠上，並且如果他跌倒在下面，
就像在月亮下面，做著那個夢！
古老的亞美利加，湮沒的新娘，
你的手指同時——
當離開叢林往諸神空虛的高處，
在光與虔誠的婚慶旗幟下，
混合著鼓與長矛的雷聲，
同時，你的手指同時——
那些被抽象的玫瑰與冰冷的直線，那些
被新種的玉蜀黍血污的乳房轉變成
明亮實體的織物，轉變成堅硬的洞穴，
同時，同時，被埋藏的亞美利加啊，你是否
在最偉大的深淵，在苦澀的腸裡，學鷹一樣把饑餓藏著？

１１
穿過混亂的輝煌，
穿過石頭的夜，讓我把手探進，
並且讓被遺忘的古老的心像一隻被囚禁了
一千年的鳥在我的體內跳動！
今天讓我把這快樂忘掉，比所有的海還寬，
因為人比所有的海以及他的島嶼還寬，
並且必須掉進他裡面，如同掉進井泉，
帶著一枝秘密的水與玄奧的真理升上來。
讓我忘掉，廣闊的石頭，強有力的比例，
超絕的尺寸，蜂巢狀的基石，
並且在今天讓我把手從三角板滑下鹽血
與粗蔴布的斜邊。
當，像一具紅翼鞘做的蹄鐵，憤怒的兀鷹
在飛翔的秩裡撞擊我的額頭，
而那些食肉類羽毛的颶風把幽暗的灰塵
從斜梯上捲起：我看不見急馳的鳥獸，
看不見它腳爪盲目的刈弧。
我看到遠古的本體，奴僕，田野裏的睡眠者，
我看到一個身體，一千個身體，一個男人，一千個女人，
在黑色的強風，在雨與夜的黑色底下，
枕著雕像沉重的石塊：
劈石者璜安，委拉哥拉的兒子，
食冷者璜安，綠色星星的兒子，
赤足者璜安，土耳其玉的孫子，
與我一同復活吧，兄弟。

１２
與我一同復活吧，兄弟。

把你的手從四處散播的哀愁的
深處伸出來給我吧。
你不會從岩石的底部回來。
你不會從地底的時間回來。
你變硬了的聲音不會回來。
你戳了孔的眼睛不會回來。
自泥土的最內部注視我，

耕者，織者，沉默的牧人：
守護神野駱馬的馴服者：
被挑釁的絞刑台的石匠：
安底斯山淚水的持瓶者：
手指被搗碎的珠寶商：
在穀粒間顫抖的農夫：

濺灑你的黏土的陶工：
把你們古老，埋在地下的哀愁
倒進這新生命的杯子吧。
給我看你們的血跟你們的犁溝。
告訴我：我在這兒受罰，
因為一顆寶石它不發光，因為土地
不能及時生出石頭或穀粒：
給我看你們摔上去的石頭
以及他們用來絞死你們的木頭。
點燃那些古老的燧石，
那些古老的燈，那些跨過千百個世紀
黏到傷口的鞭子，
以及沾著血腥光彩的斧頭。
我來借你們死去的嘴巴說話。

讓四處分散的沉寂的嘴唇
自泥土的每一部份集合起來，
並且從無底的深淵終夜不斷地對我說話
彷彿我像錨一樣緊繫著你
告訴我每一樣事物，一鏈接一鏈，
一環接一環，一級接一級地；
磨利你積藏的刀叉，
將它們刺進我的胸膛，刺進我的手，
彷彿一河黃色的光芒，
一河被埋葬的老虎，
並且讓我哭泣，每一小時，每一天，每一年，
每一盲眼的時代，星星的世紀。

給我寂靜，水，希望。

給我掙扎，鐵，火山。

讓屍體像磁鐵一樣黏住我。

來到我的血脈和我的嘴。

用我的聲音、我的血說話。

無法遺忘

2008-02-26T10:40:00.000-08:00

如果你問我上那兒去了，
我必得說「事情發生了」。
我必得提及路石模糊的地面
以及始終自我毀滅的河流：
我只知道鳥兒丟失的事物，
被拋在腦後的大海，以及我姊姊的哭泣。
為什麼有那麼多的地區，為什麼一天
緊接著另一天？為什麼漆黑的夜晚
在口中堆積？為什麼有人死去？
如果你問我打那兒來，我必得和破碎的事物交談，
和苦澀的器皿，
和腐爛的巨獸，
以及我受創的心。

那些跨過我思緒的不是記憶，
也不是在我們遺忘中熟睡的黃鴿，
而是帶淚的臉孔，
探入喉頭的手指
以及自樹葉中掉落的：
被我們憂傷的血液滋養的歲月——
那逝去的歲月它的黑暗。

這裡有紫羅蘭，燕子，
每樣令我們愉悅、出現在
甜蜜精美的卡片上的事物——
時間和甘美漫步其間。

但讓我們不要再去探索齒後的一切，
不要再去啃嚙寂靜堆築起來的外殼，
因為我不知道該如何回答：
有那麼多的死者，
有那麼多被紅日割裂的提防，
有那麼多碰撞船身的頭顱，
有那麼多圍藏吻的手，
以及那麼多我想遺忘的事物。

Pablo Neruda

2008-02-26T10:28:00.001-08:00

http://www.hgjh.hlc.edu.tw/~chenli/neruda%20poems.htm

今夜我可以寫出 -- 爱情太短，回忆太长

2008-02-26T10:15:00.000-08:00

Puedo escribir los versos más tristes esta noche.

Escribir: por ejemplo: «La noche está estrellada,
y tiritan, azules, los astros, a lo lejos.»

El viento de la noche gira en el cielo y canta.

Puedo escribir los versos más tristes esta noche.
Yo la quise, y a veces ella también me quiso.

En las noches como ésta la tuve entre mis brazos.
La besé tantas veces bajo el cielo infinito.

Ella me quiso, a veces yo también la quería.
Cómo no haber amado sus grandes ojos fijos.

Puedo escribir los versos más tristes esta noche.
Pensar que no la tengo. Sentir que la he perdido.

Oír la noche inmensa, más inmensa sin ella.
Y el verso cae al alma como al pasto el rocío.

Qué importa que mi amor no pudiera guardarla.
la noche está estrellada y ella no está conmigo.

Eso es todo. A lo lejos alguien canta. A lo lejos.
Mi alma no se contenta con haberla perdido.

Como para acercarla mi mirada la busca.
Mi corazón la busca, y ella no está conmigo.

la misma noche que hace blanquear los mismos árboles.
Nosotros, los de entonces, ya no somos los mismos.

Ya no la quiero, es cierto, pero cuánto la quise.
Mi voz buscaba el viento para tocar su oído.

De otro. Será de otro. Como antes de mis besos.
Su voz, su cuerpo claro. Sus ojos infinitos.

Ya no la quiero, es cierto, pero tal vez la quiero.
Es tan corto el amor, y es tan largo el olvido.

Porque en noches como ésta la tuve entre mis brazos,
mi alma no se contenta con haberla perdido.

Aunque éste sea el último dolor que ella me causa,
y éstos sean los últimos versos que yo le escribo.

今夜我可以寫出最哀傷的詩篇。

寫，譬如說，「夜被擊碎
而藍色的星在遠處顫抖。」

晚風在天空中迴旋歌唱。

今夜我可以寫出最哀傷的詩篇。
我愛她，而有時候她也愛我。

而許多彷彿此刻的夜裡我擁她入懷。
在永恆的天空下一遍一遍地吻她。

她愛我，而有時候我也愛她。
你怎能不愛她晶瑩碩大的眼睛？

今夜我可以寫出最哀傷的詩篇。
想到不能擁有她，想到已經失去了她。　

聽到那遼闊的夜，因她不在而更遼闊。
詩遂如草原上的露珠滴落心靈。

我的愛不能叫她留下有什麼好難過的呢？
夜被擊碎而她離我遠去。

都過去了。在遠處有人歌唱。在遠處。
我的心不甘就此失去她。

我的眼光搜尋著彷彿要走向她。
我的心在找她，而她離我遠去。

相同的夜漂白著相同的樹。
昔日的我們已不復存在。

如今我確已不再愛她，但我曾經多愛她啊。
我的聲音試著藉風探觸她的聽覺。

別人的。她就將是別人的了。一如我過去的吻。
她的聲音。她明亮的身體。她永恆的眼睛。

如今我確已不再愛她。但也許我仍愛著她。
愛是這麼短，遺忘是這麼長。

因為在許多彷彿此刻的夜裡我擁她入懷，
我的心不甘就此失去她。

即令這是她帶給我的最後的痛苦，
而這些是我為她寫的最後詩篇。
　

2008-02-13T13:43:00.000-08:00

20几岁决定女人的一生(节选自Vivien的blog,which转载自原著）

关于品位

1．你应该向那些比你富裕，比你有能力，生活得幸福的人寻求指点。不要嫉妒和远离那些比自己优秀的人，而应该跟他们接近，从他们身上吸取精华。

关于爱自己

1．外貌和头脑都需要投资。漂亮的女人应该打破男人对她们“花瓶”的偏见，让自己做到漂亮，健康，智慧一应俱全。

4．二十几岁也要做健康投资。

6. 不要忘了，博爱的人不论何时都最爱自己。

关于事业

1．如果想当CEO首要的任务是成为复印和整理档案的高手。不要眼高手低，很多大事情都是由小事情积累而成的，大的成就是由小的成绩积聚而成的。20几岁的事业，最重要是积累。

关于梦想

1．不喜欢摸索新的出路，不喜欢动脑的女人，很可能会一辈子活得辛苦。女人，一定要有自己的理想和梦想，并且有着为自己理想梦想而打拼得一颗坚强的心，以及所需要付出的行动。

2．幸福的女人向来把梦想和目标牢记在心底，并且相信它们总有一天会变成现实，同时，她们也懂得时时刻刻朝着梦想的方向前进，就算梦想不宏大也要持之以恒。做自己喜欢做的事情，又能赚到钱，这多好啊！对于想得到的东西，我们要喜欢它，寻找它，追求它，这才是世间的法则。

3．不要认为到了三十岁人生就结束了。其实，只要确定自己想做的事情，即使过了三十岁，已经结了婚，也完全可以从头开始。让你不能做事的原因，不是环境不允许，而是自己没有确定的目标。

所以，聪明的女人总是喜欢指定新目标，每天仔细地研究和坚定这种信念。尝到过成功的女人，没有时间考虑人生究竟有没有意义之类的话题。只要早上一睁开眼睛就会期待今天将是精彩的一天。人的一生都要不断地树立新目标，再实现目标，何况现在的你还年轻。

4．有梦想的人，就算不能实现这个梦想，也会因为奋斗的过程而实现特别的价值。有梦想的人言谈举止都与相同环境的人不一样。

关于世故

1．人既能够不为憎恨而失去理智，又能够做出最有利于自己的选择。如果不想再不幸中生活，那么就要丢掉“正在被人欺负”的观念。你要做的只是调整好压力，等待那些恶人引火自焚。不过人们最不会处理的人际关系就是“等待”，要学会等待真不容易！

“等待”的确是一种最为有效的方法，有时候我也称之为：“保持缄默！” 如果，一个人心里素质足够好的话，他既不怕别人让他等待，他自己也最能够让别人等待.

2．世界上有太多比自尊心更重要的东西，但二十几岁的人不太懂得这一点。

3．友好的人际关系，就会有更多的机会选择好的工作，好老公。做个有人脉的女人。

4．远离对世界充满抱怨的人。积极的人拥有更多获得成就的潜力，并且向四周散发出她的能量。只要在她身边，你就可以得到力量。

5．和蔼的女人可以平定世界，即使别人无视于你的存在也不会有什么损失，这样想就可以微笑着敲开世界的大门。微笑，总之不管发生什么，请你一直都要保持着微笑。微笑的能量巨大无比，谁能够掌控了微笑，这个人就已经可以掌控了她的命运和她周围的世界。

This is it...

2008-01-19T13:12:00.000-08:00

used to be my favorite one from Lee Hom, but now sounds inexplicably gloomy every time I hear it...

2008-01-14T16:28:00.000-08:00

珊瑚海

2008-01-13T09:40:00.000-08:00

夜曲

威廉古堡

如果不爱你

希望你幸福

2008-01-12T12:05:00.000-08:00

peace

2008-01-11T13:22:00.000-08:00

刚才发现原来她已经去世差不多3年了。。。为了Karen, 也为了我喜欢的BM，纪念一下

At least since her appearance as avenging angel in the scandal-causing movie BAISE-MOI, Karen Lancaume is among the best-known French pornstars. Born on January 19th 1973 near Lyon in France, the cute brunette also grew up there. As a child Karine (her real name) was a quiet girl and she lived a fairly sheltered life with her parents, her brother and their pets. She spent most of her free time outdoors, in the forests near her home.

Only once she turned 17 did this demure girl succumb to the charm of a holiday flirt and that night changed Karine thoroughly. Sweet country bumpkin by day, hot vamp on the look-out for adventures by night. Once she had finished the French equivalent to grammar school she left her home and went on to study advertising in Lyon. To earn some extra cash she began working behind the bar of a discotheque at weekends (quite handy for meeting men too). And indeed, she soon met her husband to be: Franck the disc-jockey.

Karen and Franck got married and wanted to have many children, but their financial difficulties stopped them from fulfilling that dream. The financial problems kept getting worse and when the couple spotted an ad by 'Marc Dorcel', the love-birds applied. They agreed to do the hardcore-production under one condition: They'd only shoot scenes between the two of them. The movie was called L'INDECENTE AUX ENFERS and happened to be one of the biggest French productions of 1996. But trouble started right away: Franck was having problems with his 'male-prowess' and Karen Lancaume had to finish the shoot without him. The director and producer were very happy with Karen and she was offered more work. She accepted and a new star of French erotic movies was born!

She kept shooting movies for Marc Dorcel, worked with Patrice Cabanel and all other greats of the French porn-biz. She got more and more recognition and was nominated for the 'Hot D'Or' award. Her marriage with Franck was beyond saving, despite (or maybe because) of her success and they ended up getting divorced. Karen Lancaume continued climbing the ladder of success to the top and became one of the favourite and most widely known European porn actresses. Even the biggest and best porn directors such as Andrew Blake, Luca Damiano or Mario Salieri were very eager to work with her.

But the high-point of her career should be provided by a woman: In 2000 Virginie Despentes cast Karen Lancaume for the leading role in her post-feminist scandal-movie BAISE-MOI (under the name Karen Bach). The movie, in which among other things a man is shot in the ass and which stars a range of porn-stars (such as Raphaela Anderson, Elodie Chérie, Zenza Raggi), sparked a world-wide debate about art, violence and pornography. The media blew up the movie out of all proportion, calling it an big scandal.

Karen Lancaume deserves a place among the porn legends for her role of murderous avenging angel in BAISE-MOI alone. Which other porn-actress can rightly claim to have caused an international scandal? Chapeau, Madame Lancaume!

On the night of January 28th to 29th 2005 Karen Lancaume chose to end her life. She died from taking an overdose of sleeping tablets.

给未来的自己

2008-01-10T11:32:00.001-08:00

did you hear it...

2008-01-08T10:23:00.000-08:00

Adagio for Strings and Organ (Tomaso Albinoni)

Canon in D

生命中不可承受的轻（梁静茹）

会呼吸的痛

Ces't la vie

How much I love you

2008-01-01T12:03:00.000-08:00

现在才明白自己是一个多么害怕孤独的孩子。。。

常常跟他们讲起过去在Toronto的两年并不开心 -- 不是因为没有朋友，只是自己都不明白为什么表面硬撑的躯壳底下为什么总是藏着那么寒冷的灵魂。所有人都是需要爱的吧，可是没有人能体会18岁后的6年里没有办法真正找到能融化冻结心灵的温暖的那种绝望。不知道是太贪心还是太脆弱，虽然一路走来总有不错的运气，虽然总以为自己已经坚强到麻木到冷血，可是当失望到已经没法再期望，麻痹自己变成了逃避现实的最佳手段。那种对家人对自己对所有爱我的人的责任感成了最重要的支撑，可能已经逐渐能体会到anego的心情了吧，各种各样的危机感接踵而至；即使是anego还知道自己想要什么却得不到，而我，过去六年的我，虽然从没放弃过奋斗，却连自己想要得都看不到。

Roger曾经问我是不是也觉得本命年很霉，Hao-yuh和我相视而笑：这一年真是什么怪事倒霉事都让我碰上了。可是，有些话我并没能说出来：知道吗? 其实刚过去的2007年是我最开心的一年。能来到这个学校，感受这里奇特的文化，能和MIT作邻居（不管你们怎么损Harvard=p), 被这么多优秀的人们包围着，那种幸福的感觉是从来都没有过的。

谢谢你，Hao-yuh, 谢谢你在刚过去的12月里教会我蟑螂的坚强，谢谢你的倾听和分享，谢谢我们一起喝酒聊天的快乐时光，谢谢你的乐观和笑容，谢谢你从Time Square发来的新年的明媚的祝福。谢谢你的音乐，你的歌声，谢谢你和我们一起庆祝你自己和Gao Wei的生日。谢谢你在SEAS Holiday Party上帮我解围，谢谢你和我还有Jane共度的xmas eve。谢谢你亲身诠释什么是宽容和随和，谢谢你在我无助的时候给我的建议。谢谢你推荐给我的美食，谢谢你勇敢的吃掉Legal Seafood那个巨大的baked potato =p。谢谢我们一起打球时你拼命的样子给我的鼓励，谢谢你给我还有我给你起的绰号，谢谢我们一起八卦的故事，你在Facebook上认真地quote我说的话还有你送的冰淇淋。认识你真的是我的幸运。

谢谢你，Roger, 真的不知道该怎么表达我的感谢，只想让你知道你对我来说是多么重要的"ice breaker", 让我的2007年的最后两个星期变得如此难忘。谢谢你在我滑雪摔得乱七八糟的时候伸出的援手，谢谢你做我的司机，在我心情不好的时候陪我去海边（那是我这辈子见过最神奇的月光下的海滩+冷死我了@@), 谢谢你玩杀人时一直搅局，还有开心的温暖的每一点一滴。还有最重要的，谢谢你没有放纵我的任性和冲动，给我冷静的时间，去懂得和珍惜。无论你离开的2008年1月是不是一个终结，我都会好好保存这段记忆；在今后的日子里，把你当作最好的朋友去爱，感谢上天让我遇见优秀，开朗和细心的你。

谢谢你，Gao Wei大哥+半个老乡，谢谢你组织的所有活动，而且每次都算我一个，谢谢你的照顾，谢谢你让我认识那么多MIT的朋友（虽然你一直问我为什么总和MIT-ers混在一起+是不是被Harvard-ers踢出来了），谢谢你唱得那么多好听的歌，谢谢你和我们一起过生日（虽然你的生日礼物我一直没想出买什么），谢谢你的拥抱，谢谢你教我滑雪，帮我克服心理障碍，指出我的错误和问题。谢谢你在career上给我的建议，你的坚定的自信为我做了很好的榜样。谢谢你的火锅，一起看烟火，每次都怀疑我是杀手（这该感谢吗@@)。谢谢你为大家做的一切，谢谢你擦亮了我倒霉的本命年。祝你在纽约的新生活成为你想更高目标奋斗的美好起点，加油！！！

谢谢你，Vivien, 谢谢你陪我看Nodame Cantabile看到早上四点多，谢谢你让我认识神学院的同学们，谢谢我们一起吃饭聊天八卦逛街，谢谢你帮我和Harvard的中国同学们维系了联系，谢谢你给我烤平生第一个蛋糕的机会并且作第一个鉴定者+支持者（更坚定了我做dessert chef的决心=)，谢谢你在gloomy New England wintier邀请我去享受加州的阳光, 谢谢你告诉我我是一个让你觉得舒服的朋友。

谢谢你们，Amos, Nan, Scott, Wei, 你们是我在Harvard最感激的人，谢谢你们支持我组织的Tuesday/Thursday Lunch, 谢谢你们让我看见了Harvard最上进最纯朴最善良也最平易近人的一群人。谢谢你，Amos（还有Karen -- 最可爱的一对=)，祝我们以后share办公室愉快+工作愉快，还有弹琴愉快。谢谢你，Nan, 谢谢你一直做我的grocery-mate, 帮我从加拿大带回重要的记忆，谢谢你对八卦新闻的支持，谢谢你请我去听京剧，谢谢你还有Scott让我看到对research得认真和热情。谢谢你Scott, I really appreciate your loyalty and commitment to your religion. 谢谢你让我在这个浮躁的社会里看到这样纯洁，平静和年轻的精神。谢谢你，Wei, we share lots of similar experience. 谢谢你在学习工作还有学校各种莫名其妙的policy上给我的建议。

谢谢你们，Joe and Martin, 谢谢你们做我的office-mates, 你们真的是非常棒的companion呢，在选择老板上给我重要的信息，和我聊天，开玩笑，你们的存在让我觉得温暖和幸福。虽然一个星期后我们就永远不再是officemates了，可是这个永远洒满阳光的办公室，还有你们，还有小蛇Wilber, 我永远都不会忘记。

谢谢你，Seungyung, 你真的是我的amazing flatmate. I'm so impressed by your generosity, optimistic spirit, and outgoing personality. 虽然每次大扫除还是要由我来组织，可是你每次认真的样子都让我看见一个韩国女生身上不可多得的优秀品质。

谢谢你们，Shu-hsien, Jack, Emily, Sally, Ting-yi, 还有其他很多很多的台湾朋友，你们让我了解了和我很不一样的你们的成长经历，让我接触了许多我从前没机会接触的东西。你们的热情和open-mindedness让我和你们渡过了许多难忘的时光。

谢谢你们，Joe, Christoph, Julien, Charles, JM, Etienne, Cristen, and all other friends in Canada, 你们是我在加拿大最舍不得放下的回忆。谢谢我们曾经一起skating, skiing, taking trip together to Montreal, 谢谢你们在那个寒冷的国度尽全力给我的温暖。

谢谢你们，Cherrie, 还有其他UofT undergrad的朋友，每当我想起你们的年轻的活力和永远用不完的能量，自己就像被充足了电一样。还有小Cherrie, 你真的是个很神奇的女生呢，我会记住你告诉我的你的梦想，相信你自己，总有一天会实现，你也会遇见那个真正属于你的另一半圆圈。

谢谢你们，Yonggang, Dick, Guido, 还有所有组员，谢谢你们过去对我的照顾和关心。Yonggang, 要早点毕业哦。

谢谢你，Zhao Yi, 有你在的日子让我觉得快乐，谢谢过去我们贫嘴抬杠的经历。谢谢你新年的祝福。祝你和你lp永远幸福。

谢谢你们，Huang Yi, Shih-yuh, Qin, Deng Yi, Tianyi. 知道吗？没有你们，没有我们在Colorado 的故事，就没有今天的我。真的，真的，我真得很爱你们，还有我们的Colorado, Rocky Mountain, and Bear Peak.

实在有太多太多地感动和感激想告诉所有爱过我帮助过我，以及骂过我和毫不留情批评我缺点的人，可是再写下去估计也不会有人想看了(我最长的blog...). 所以这里没有提到的人千万别生我的气，本人虽然经常忘事，可是永远不会忘了祝福你们。爸爸妈妈和家里的各位关怀我的长辈我另外道谢，就不占用这里的空间了。

Do you know how much I love you, and how much I love every minute being with you...

Sleepless Squirrel

2007-12-23T15:17:00.000-08:00

Squirrels in Harvard Yard... How could this be possible? They are supposed to be hibernating in this deep December -- chilly, snowy, icy, windy, no-hope-for-food-hunting New England winter. Who woke them up before the spring sunshine flows into their nest? Most important of all, how many chances do they have to get back to sleep and earn their opportunities to survive through...

How to get back to sleep...

A friend caught this msg; he said he would be happy if he could eat them (I know he was joking though). Maybe, I should say, maybe that's not a bad idea for their own good: they'll die anyway; it'll keep them from suffering the winter they don't deserve.

Maybe not. Maybe "it's the journey that matters; not the destination" (thanks Hao-yuh). Everyone will die some day; lose everything; lose love, family, friends, career, music; even lose the right to choose suffering, starving, hurting and being hurt, struggling. However, we always keep our faith in life: we'll rock sooner or later; the tulip of life will blossom one day if we don't give up. We harvest the fruits along the way of our journey; we sip the sweet serum, enjoy what life endows us, enjoy what lovers, families, friends spare and share with us, and we pick up every little piece on our way, brew them, store them for the future. Every story, we carefully, deliberately preserve it into our database of memory.

Journey. We never know how far we can go. We never know what would happen tomorrow. We experience expecting, exciting, restlessness, nervousness, hesitating, wavering, doubting, disappointing, heartbreaking, surprising, desperating, hoping, contenting, satisfying, loving... We savor all kinds of flavors; we get to enjoy each one of them though they may be out of our control most of the time.

Journey. No matter if tomorrow is the destination.

Journey.

Suns, Celtics

2007-11-11T11:45:00.000-08:00

It was around 11:30am when I got up this morning. Happily learning that Suns beat Magic by 10, Barbosa blitzed his way to a career-high 39 points, and Hill gave a not-bad performance on his first-return to Orlando, I realized something's back -- the passion pushed me up during those crazy days plodding through finals, thesis, and presentations for some congress while never missing any play-off game. Hooray!

Undoubtedly I was perfectly timing: coming to Boston at the big 2007-2008 season. Aside from Red Sox's historic winning, Celtics, by assimilating K. Garnett, R. Allen, and P. Pierce, has resurrected after ages of hibernation. Beautiful five straight wins make it undefeated so far, and will make me happily spend more on watching their games =D

The Last Monday before winter

2007-10-29T19:20:00.000-07:00

Just a brief list to help myself what was going on today:

1. I got my second MMR shot after 24 years (the first was given before I was 1 year old). What a memorable souvenir for the two rounds (两轮) I've been through!! I was notify last Thursday that my first shot is kinda expired and thereby I have to get the second immunization. They even threaten me I'll be not able to register next spring, which is the second time I've been threatened in my first two months in Harvard... (Maybe Nan is sort of right at this point: I have the most probability to be kicked out from Harvard!) The worst is: I was charged $56 bucks for this 'painful' souvenir!!

2. The first mid-term grade came out: it was bad, but not as bad as I thought.

3. It's kinda shameful I realized that I somehow mixed 'Maple Leaves' with 'Blue Jays' when I was happily commenting on ML's performance in this and previous seasons... It was basically due to the abrupt switch from baseball to Hockey... Thanks to Martin!

4. Where would I see my career in the next 5 years? How much hope should I keep in switching my gear in 2 or 3 years? I'm so desperate bringing changes into life, but too much hurry ends up with overlooking the beauty of life.

"Tomorrow is another day." Miss you, Han; miss you all, 403-ers.

2:58am....

2007-10-26T23:56:00.000-07:00

It looks not quite like a express review... all those crazy ideas...

Express review of Pan's Labyrinth

2007-10-26T22:46:00.000-07:00

The problem is, it's 1:48 am on Oct. 27; and my bed, is only 3 meters from me... Well, I promised I will write a review for every single movie I watch... Here it comes: Pan's Labyrinth. To be concise, I highly recommend it to all kids under 8 years old. Love fairy tale? Go for it! If you're smart enough, it's not hard to discover something hidden behind -- in eyes of genius, this is a world full of beautiful, illusion-inducing cruelty-- the more brilliant and sensitive you are, the more pain you feel as growing up. Or, to be fair, should I say, if you are in some sense somehow abuse your intelligence in an early age when you watch this movie, you get hurt deep inside and your view of life get twist -- that's your problem: why don't you just believe the underground world, the fairies, your royal family are real??

Why bother to change the original ideas of Green fairy tales? Why do we ever wanna purify everything before we cultivate young children given they have to face all what we've been facing anyway? What belief or faith do we bear in mind all the time and always convinced beneficial to kids, for god's sake, that could ever justify it's a good manner to first build up an ideal world in children's minds, then ruthlessly let them collapse at a later stage in their lives?

There are only three types of people who will thrive in this world -- forgive me if the following comments upset some of us adults, and forgive me taking Pan's Labyrinth as my example if some one have completely different perspective -- the first, maybe also the smallest population, is those with peak IQ & EQ. These people will learn the hidden meaning of what a 'true' fairy tale tells at first glance when they are little; they digest, understand, and then take for granted that the world is not perfect, and, to some extent, unsympathetic. They adjust themselves quickly with feeling less shocks in beliefs, and they are hard to beaten. The second may not have as high IQ score as the first type, but they undoubtedly outstanding in EQ, because they can do pretty well in handling all kinds of impact and shocks. They don't get those secrets in fairy tales in their childhood; they experience painful corruptions of fantasy and mirage, but pull through quickly using their distinguished ability dealing with spiritual pressure and irritation, and take the next step before others have time to blink. The third group, which may also be a low probability population, but fortunately has people such as Forrest Gump as its representative, include those lucky forever-happy 'fools'. You must know what I mean. I always believe "大智若愚" and am so jealous of FG being such a brilliant 'fool'. It's not difficult to live in fairy tales when life involves pretty much only fairy tales, but it's incredibly hard to be a 'princess' for life. Luckily for some human beings, they were born with this gift; and luckily for them, they never confuse about fairy and reality.

New England White 之 Kellen Zant

2007-10-22T19:57:00.000-07:00

It's kinda late to start writing about Kellen at this time, but anyway, he is the trigger of the whole story.

The following chapters/sections contain information about Kellen Zant: pp 20-22; pp 28; pp 48.

Kellen was born in the South of no certain origin, and spent years battering his way into his current career position: he was a professor in economics who held one of the most prestigious [ ˌpres'ti:dʒəs ] endowed chairs - Tyson professorship in economics. He has a notoriety[ ˌnətə'raiəti ] about his personal life in contrast, and he prefer to earn income by consulting for large corporations and meanwhile committed very little scholarship in recent years. He's undoubtedly very talented according to Lemaster's comments: "In my chat with Kellen, I suggested that an economist of his eminence could do much to change the world if he would spend less of his energy on his private clients, and more on scholarship." The Zant-Feldman equation was one of the greatest advances in finance theory in the past half century.

On the other hand, Kellen was a person full of affairs. He liked life to change around him and hates to do the same thing twice. He's excited about future and all possibilities. He loved to fight, partly to impress some girls he was interested in, and he is, of course, attractive to lots of women. In Kellen's life, Julia is the greatest love of him, and the person he trusted most (or, should I say, the only person he ever completely trusted.). But to Julia, Kellen was one of the two men she truly loved in her life, but destroyed her in the end (Lemaster was the one who had put her back together).

There are still lots of mysteries about Kellen and people who had had relation with him. Who is Mary Mallard, the woman who had tried to learn about the "surplus" from Julia? Who did the break-in into Kellen's room and what kind of Kellen's work did they take away? What was Kellen trying to tell Julia about the trouble he had, and what was the "inventory risk" supposed to mean?...

New England White 之 Vanessa

2007-10-22T18:49:00.000-07:00

Vanessa, a high school senior, is the second child of Julia and Lemaster Carlyle. She is described as a strange, conflicted child, whose troubles could fill a book. She used to be a good student and everything had been all right, until almost a year ago, she decided to change her history term paper from the response in Landing to the Supreme Court's school desegregation decisions in the fifties to the death of her white friend Gina Joule. The two girls have lots of things in common: they're both loners - very shy, though creative; they're of the same age, height, and moderate smile. Their fathers both taught at the university. Merrill Joule, Gina's father used to be the dean of divinity school, and a leading candidate for president of the university before his death a quarter-century ago. The end of the first part of chapter 5 writes "the largest problem was that Merrill Joule had been in the ground a good quarter-century, and his daughter, Gina, had drowned at the town beach back when...." What mystery is hidden behind is not yet clear. Gina had been disappeared and her body was found days later and proved to have been sexually assaulted, while the only race riot in the country's history, which was caused by a slain black teenager by police, was taking place.

Back to Vanessa. Vanessa always had such illusion that Gina was with her. This could be the cause of her peculiar mania according to one theory, or just a manifestation of a deeper trauma. (We still don't know where this trauma originally came from.) Once she started working on the paper about Gina, she was no longer caring about her grades and her friends; she even torched her father's car as a fighting back to her father's measure on her. She explained: I did it for Gina.

Carl Jung & analytical psychology

2007-10-21T09:27:00.000-07:00

Note: the following three articles are cited from Wiki.

Carl Gustav Jung (IPA: [ˈkarl ˈgʊstaf ˈjʊŋ]) (July 26, 1875, Kesswil – June 6, 1961, Küsnacht) was a Swiss psychiatrist, influential thinker, and founder of analytical psychology.

Jung's unique and broadly influential approach to psychology has emphasized understanding the psyche through exploring the worlds of dreams, art, mythology, world religion and philosophy. Although he was a theoretical psychologist and practicing clinician for most of his life, much of his life's work was spent exploring other realms, including Eastern and Western philosophy, alchemy, astrology, sociology, as well as literature and the arts. His most notable contributions include his concept of the psychological archetype, the collective unconscious, and his theory of synchronicity.

Jung emphasized the importance of balance and harmony. He cautioned that modern humans rely too heavily on science and logic and would benefit from integrating spirituality and appreciation of the unconscious realm.

Overview

Jung developed his own distinctive approach to the study of the human mind. In his early years when working in a Swiss hospital with schizophrenic patients and working with Sigmund Freud and the burgeoning psychoanalytic community, he took a closer look at the mysterious depths of the human unconscious. Fascinated by what he saw (and spurred on with even more passion by the experiences and questions of his personal life) he devoted his life to the exploration of the subconscious. Unlike many modern psychologists, Jung did not feel that experimenting using natural science was the best means to understand the soul. For him, an empirical investigation of the world of dream, myth, and soul represented the most promising road to deeper understanding.

The overarching goal of Jungian psychology is the reconciliation of the life of the individual with the world of the supra-personal archetypes. Central to this process is the individual's encounter with the subconscious. The human experiences the subconscious through symbols encountered in all aspects of life: in dreams, art, religion, and the symbolic dramas we enact in our relationships and life pursuits. Essential to the encounter with the subconscious, and the reconciliation of the individual's consciousness with this broader world, is learning this symbolic language. Only through attention and openness to this world is the individual able to harmonize their life with these suprapersonal archetypal forces.

"Neurosis" results from a disharmony between the individual's consciousness and the greater archetypal world. The aim of psychotherapy is to assist the individual in reestablishing a healthy relationship to the subconscious (neither being swamped by it — a state characteristic of psychosis — nor completely shut off from it — a state that results in malaise, empty consumerism, narcissism, and a life cut off from deeper meaning). The encounter between consciousness and the symbols arising from the subconscious enriches life and promotes psychological development. Jung considered this process of psychological growth and maturation (which he called the process of individuation) to be of critical importance to the human being, and ultimately to modern society.

In order to undergo the individuation process, the individual must be open to the parts of oneself beyond one's own ego. In order to do this, the modern individual must pay attention to dreams, explore the world of religion and spirituality, and question the assumptions of the operant societal worldview (rather than just blindly living life in accordance with dominant norms and assumptions).

[edit] The fundamentals

[edit] The unconscious

Main articles: Unconscious, Collective unconscious, and Archetypes

The basic assumption is that the personal unconscious is a potent part — probably the more active part — of the normal human psyche. Reliable communication between the conscious and unconscious parts of the psyche is necessary for wholeness.

Also crucial is the belief that dreams show ideas, beliefs, and feelings of which individuals are not readily aware, but need to be, and that such material is expressed in a personalized vocabulary of visual metaphors. Things "known but unknown" are contained in the unconscious, and dreams are one of the main vehicles for the unconscious to express them.

Analytical psychology distinguishes between a personal and a collective unconscious. (see below)

The collective unconscious contains archetypes common to all human beings. That is, individuation may bring to surface symbols that do not relate to the life experiences of a single person. This content is more easily viewed as answers to the more fundamental questions of humanity: life, death, meaning, happiness, fear. Among these more spiritual concepts may arise and be integrated into the personality.

[edit] The collective unconscious

Jung's concept of the collective unconscious has often been misunderstood. In order to understand this concept, it is essential to understand Jungian archetypes.

The archetypes of the collective unconscious could be thought of as the DNA of the human psyche^{[citation needed]}. Just as all humans share a common physical heritage and predisposition towards specific gross physical forms (like having two legs, a heart, etc.) so do all humans have innate psychological predispositions in the form of archetypes, which compose the collective unconscious.

In contrast to the objective material world, the subjective realm of archetypes cannot be fully plumbed through quantitative modes of research. Instead it can be revealed more fully through an examination of the symbolic communications of the human psyche — in art, dreams, religion, myth, and the themes of human relational/behavioral patterns. Devoting his life to the task of exploring and understanding the collective unconscious, Jung theorized that certain symbolic themes exist across all cultures, all epochs, and in every individual.

[edit] The archetypes

Main article: Jungian archetypes

The use of psychological archetypes was advanced by Jung in 1919 and generally adopted in the social sciences. In Jung's psychological framework, archetypes are innate, universal prototypes for ideas and may be used to interpret observations. A group of memories and interpretations associated with an archetype is a complex, e.g. a mother complex associated with the mother archetype. Jung treated the archetypes as psychological organs, analogous to physical ones in that both are morphological givens that arose through evolution.

[edit] Self-realization and neuroticism

Main articles: Self-realization and Neuroticism

An innate need for self-realization leads people to explore and integrate these rejected materials. This natural process is called individuation, or the process of becoming an individual.

According to Jung, Self-realization can be divided into two distinct tiers. In the first half of our lives we separate from humanity. We attempt to create our own identities (I, myself). This is why there is such a need for young men to be destructive, and can be expressed as animosity from teens directed at their parents. Jung also said we have a sort of “second puberty” that occurs between 35-40- outlook shifts from emphasis on materialism, sexuality, and having children to concerns about community and spirituality.

In the second half of our lives, we reunite with the human race. We become part of the collective once again. This is when adults start to contribute to humanity (volunteer time, build, garden, create art, etc.) rather than destroy. They are also more likely to pay attention to their unconscious and conscious feelings. How often do you hear a young man state, "I feel angry." or "I feel sad.”? This is because they have not rejoined the collective in their older, wiser years, according to Jung. A common theme is for young rebels to "search" for their true selves and realize that a contribution to humanity is essentially a necessity for a whole self.

Jung proposes that the ultimate goal of the collective unconscious and self-realization is to pull us to the highest experience. This, of course, is spiritual.

If a person does not proceed toward self-knowledge, neurotic symptoms may arise. Symptoms are widely defined, including, for instance, phobias, fetishism, depression.

[edit] The shadow

The shadow is an unconscious complex that is defined as the repressed and suppressed aspects of the conscious self.

There are constructive and destructive types of shadow.

On the destructive side, it often represents everything that the conscious person does not wish to acknowledge within themselves. For instance, someone who identifies as being kind has a shadow that is harsh or unkind. Conversely, an individual who is brutal has a kind shadow. The shadow of persons who are convinced that they are ugly appears to be beautiful.

On the constructive side, the shadow may represent hidden positive influences. This has been referred to as "the gold in the shadow." Jung points to the story of Moses and Al-Khidr in the 18th Sura (Chapter) of the Koran as an example.

Jung emphasized the importance of being aware of shadow material and incorporating it into conscious awareness, lest one project these attributes on others.

The shadow in dreams is often represented by dark figures of the same gender as the dreamer.

According to Jung the human being deals with the reality of the Shadow in four ways: denial, projection, integration and/or transmutation.

[edit] Anima and animus

Jung identified the anima as being the unconscious feminine component of men and the animus as the unconscious masculine component in women. However, this is rarely taken as a literal definition: many modern day Jungian practitioners believe that every person has both an anima and an animus. Jung stated that the anima and animus act as guides to the unconscious unified Self, and that forming an awareness and a connection with the anima or animus is one of the most difficult and rewarding steps in psychological growth. Jung reported that he identified his anima as she spoke to him, as an inner voice, unexpectedly one day.

Often, when people ignore the anima or animus complexes, the anima or animus vies for attention by projecting itself on others. This explains, according to Jung, why we are sometimes immediately attracted to certain strangers: we see our anima or animus in them. Love at first sight is an example of anima and animus projection. Moreover, people who strongly identify with their gender role (e.g. a man who acts aggressively and never cries) have not actively recognized or engaged their anima or animus.

Jung attributes human rational thought to be the male nature, while the irrational aspect is considered to be natural female. Consequently, irrationality is the male anima shadow and rationality is the female animus shadow.

[edit] Psychoanalysis

Main articles: Psychoanalysis and Dream analysis

Analysis is a way to experience and integrate the unknown material. It is a search for the meaning of behaviors, symptoms, events. Many are the channels to reach this greater self-knowledge. The analysis of dreams is the most common. Others may include expressing feelings in art pieces, poetry or other expressions of creativity.

Giving a complete description of the process of dream interpretation and individuation is complex. The nature of the complexity lies on the fact that the process is highly specific to the person who does it.

While Freudian psychoanalysis assumes that the repressed material hidden in the unconscious is given by repressed sexual instincts, Analytical psychology has a more general approach. There is no preconceived assumption about the unconscious material. The unconscious, for Jungian analysts, may contain repressed sexual drives, but also aspirations, fears, etc.

[edit] Psychological types

Analytical psychology distinguishes several psychological types or temperaments.

Extravert (Jung's spelling is extravert, which most dictionaries use; the variant "extrovert" is not preferred)
Introvert

The attitude type could be thought of as the flow of libido (psychic energy). The Introvert's flow is directed inward toward concepts and ideas and the Extravert's is directed outward towards people and objects. There are several contrasting characteristics between Extraverts and Introverts: Extraverts desire breadth and are action-oriented, while introverts seek depth and are self-oriented.

Research has shown that there may be a positive correlation between the Introversion/Extraversion types and health deterioration. Introverts may be more inclined to catatonic type schizophrenia and extraverts towards manic depression.

The often misunderstood terms extravert and introvert derive from this work. In Jung's original usage, the extraversion "is an outward-turning of libido",^[1], whereas introversion is an inward-turning of libido. Everyone has both the intraversion and the extraversion mechanisms, and the collectively dominant type determines whether an individual is introvert or extravert.^[1]

According to Jung, the conscious psyche is an apparatus for adaptation and orientation, and consists of a number of different psychic functions. Among these he distinguishes four basic functions:^[1]

sensing - perception by means of the sense organs;
intuition - perceiving in unconscious way or perception of unconscious contents.
thinking - function of intellectual cognition; the forming of logical conclusions;
feeling - function of subjective estimation;

Thinking and feeling functions are rational, while sensing and intuition are nonrational. According to Jung, rationality consists of figurative thoughts, feelings or actions with reason—a point of view based on objective value, which is set by practical experience. Nonrationality is not based in reason. Jung notes that elementary facts are also nonrational, not because they are illogical but because, as thoughts, they are not judgments.

In any person, the degree of introversion/extraversion of one function can be quite different from that of another function.

Generally, we tend to favor our most developed, superior function, while we can broaden our personality by developing the others. Related to this, Jung noted that the unconscious often tends to reveal itself most easily through a person's least developed, inferior function. The encounter with the unconscious and development of the underdeveloped function(s) thus tend to progress together.

See also: Myers-Briggs Type Indicator

[edit] The complex

Main article: Complex (psychology)

Early in Jung's career he coined the term and described the concept of the "complex". Jung claims to have discovered the concept during his free association and galvanic skin response experiments. Freud obviously took up this concept in his Oedipus complex amongst others. Jung seemed to see complexes as quite autonomous parts of psychological life. It is almost as if Jung were describing separate personalities within what is considered a single individual, but to equate Jung's use of complexes with something along the lines of multiple personality disorder would be a step out of bounds.

Jung saw an archetype as always being the central organizing structure of a complex. For instance, in a "negative mother complex," the archetype of the "negative mother" would be seen to be central to the identity of that complex. This is to say, our psychological lives are patterned on common human experiences. Interestingly, Jung saw the Ego (which Freud wrote about in German literally as the "I", one's conscious experience of oneself) as a complex. If the "I" is a complex, what might be the archetype that structures it? Jung, and many Jungians, might say "the hero," one who separates from the community to ultimately carry the community further.

[edit] Clinical theories

Main article: Psychoanalysis

Jung's writings have been of much interest to people of many backgrounds and interests, including theologians, people from the humanities, and mythologists. Jung often seemed to seek to make contributions to various fields, but he was mostly a practicing psychiatrist, involved during his whole career in treating patients. A description of Jung's clinical relevance is to address the core of his work.

Jung started his career working with hospitalized patients with major mental illnesses, most notably schizophrenia. He was interested in the possibilities of an unknown "brain toxin" that could be the cause of schizophrenia. But the majority and the heart of Jung's clinical career was taken up with what we might call today individual psychodynamic psychotherapy, in gross structure very much in the strain of psychoanalytic practice first formed by Freud.

It is important to state that Jung seemed to often see his work as not a complete psychology in itself but as his unique contribution to the field of psychology. Jung claimed late in his career that only for about a third of his patients did he use "Jungian analysis." For another third, Freudian psychology seemed to best suit the patient's needs and for the final third Adlerian analysis was most appropriate. In fact, it seems that most contemporary Jungian clinicians merge a developmentally grounded theory, such as Self psychology or Donald Winnicott's work, with the Jungian theories in order to have a "whole" theoretical repertoire to do actual clinical work.

The "I" or Ego is tremendously important to Jung's clinical work. Jung's theory of etiology of psychopathology could almost be simplified to be stated as a too rigid conscious attitude towards the whole of the psyche. That is, a psychotic episode can be seen from a Jungian perspective as the "rest" of the psyche overwhelming the conscious psyche because the conscious psyche effectively was locking out and repressing the psyche as a whole.

John Weir Perry's book The Far Side of Madness explores and fleshes out this idea of Jung's very well. Note: this is a psychological description of a psychotic episode.

Jung hypothesized a medical basis for schizophrenia that was beyond the understanding of the medical science of his day (and seems to still be beyond present medical science in a satisfactory sense). Twin studies and plenty of clinical material seem to point clearly to a medical basis for schizophrenia. It perhaps can best be said that schizophrenia is both medical and psychological. A medical understanding (again, as yet still lacking) would not change the fact that schizophrenia is lived by those who have it psychologically; that is to say, as theorists and scientists, we may be able to say that schizophrenia happens in genes, brains, and the electrochemical, but for one who has schizophrenia it also happens in their mind and experience. This is to say a purely medical treatment of major mental illness is inadequate, as is a purely psychological treatment of major mental illness.

[edit] Post-Jung

Samuels (1985) has distinguished three schools of "post-Jungian" therapy - the classical, the developmental and the archetypal.

[edit] Classical school

The classical school is that which tries to remain faithful to what Jung himself proposed and taught in person and in his 20-plus volumes of work.

[edit] Developmental school

The developmental school, associated with Michael Fordham, Brian Feldman etc., can be considered a bridge between Jungian psychoanalysis and Melanie Klein's object relations theory. Laings and Goodheart are also often mentioned.

[edit] Archetypal school

Main articles: Archetypal psychology and Mythopoetic

The archetypal school (sometimes called "the imaginal school"), with different views associated with the Mythopoeticists, such as James Hillman in his intellectual theoretical view of Archetypal psychology, Clarissa Pinkola Estés, in her view that ethnic and aboriginal people are the originators of archetypal psychology and have long carried the maps to the journey of the soul in their songs, tales, dream-telling, art and rituals; Marion Woodman who proposes a feminist viewpoint regarding archetypal psychology, and other Jungians like Thomas Moore, as well. Most mythopoeticists/archetypal psychology innovators either imagine the Self not to be the main archetype of the collective unconscious as Jung thought, but rather assign each archetype equal value...Others, who are modern progenitors of archetypal psychology (such as Estés), think of the Self as that which contains and yet is suffused by all the other archetypes, each giving life to the other.

Robert L. Moore, one of Jung's most dedicated followers, has explored the archetypal level of the human psyche in a series of five books co-authored with Douglas Gillette, which have played an important role in the men's movement in the United States. R. Moore likes to use computerese, so he likens the archetypal level of the human psyche to the hard wiring of a computer. Our personal experiences of course influence our accessing the archetypal level of the human psyche, but personalized ego consciousness can be likened to the software in a computer (e.g., Microsoft Word).

[edit] References

^ ^a ^b ^c Jung, C.G., Psychological Types (The Collected Works of C.G. Jung, Vol.6), 1976 (1921), ISBN 0-691-01813-8

Robert Aziz, C.G. Jung’s Psychology of Religion and Synchronicity (1990), currently in its 10th printing, a refereed publication of The State University of New York Press. ISBN 0-7914-0166-9.
Robert Aziz, Synchronicity and the Transformation of the Ethical in Jungian Psychology in Carl B. Becker, ed. Asian and Jungian Views of Ethics. Westport, CT: Greenwood, (1999), ISBN 0-313-30452-1.
Robert Aziz, The Syndetic Paradigm: The Untrodden Path Beyond Freud and Jung (2007), a refereed publication of The State University of New York Press. ISBN 13:978-0-7914-6982-8.
A. Samuels, (1985). Jung and the Post-Jungians. London: Routledge.

[edit] See also

[edit] External links

International Association of Analytical Psychologists
International Association for Jungian Studies
Pacifica Graduate Institute - Graduate school offering programs in Jungian and post-Jungian studies
The Journal of Jungian Theory and Practice
An Outline of Analytical Psychology by Edward F. Edinger, M.D.
Jung Arena - Analytical Psychology books, journals and resources
Website of leading Freudian-Jungian scholar-author, Dr. Robert Aziz

2007-10-21T09:25:00.000-07:00

The Twelve Steps

These are the original Twelve Steps as suggested by Alcoholics Anonymous.^[8]

We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable.
Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His Will for us and the power to carry that out.
Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

Other twelve-step groups have adapted these steps of AA as guiding principles for problems other than alcoholism. In some cases the steps have been altered to emphasize particular principles important to those fellowships.^[9]^[10]^[11]

2007-10-21T09:10:00.000-07:00

Overeaters Anonymous

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Overeaters Anonymous (OA) is a Twelve Step program for people identifying themselves as "powerless over food" including, but not limited to, compulsive overeaters, those with binge eating disorder, bulimics and anorexics. OA was founded by Rozanne S. and two other women in January, 1960. OA's headquarters (World Service Office) are located in Rio Rancho, New Mexico.^[1]^[2] OA estimates its membership at 70,000 and is active in over 70 countries. OA has developed its own literature but also uses the Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) books Alcoholics Anonymous^[3] and Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions.^[4]

Definitions

OA defines compulsion as any "impulse or feeling of being irresistibly driven toward the performance of some irrational action."^[2] OA further defines compulsive eating as a progressive, addictive illness. Much like AA's position on alcoholism, OA believes compulsive overeating is chronic and is done in an effort to alleviate psychological stress.^[2]

OA, like all other Twelve Step programs, symbolically understands human structure in three dimensions: physical, mental, and spiritual. The disorders and diseases the groups deal with are understood to manifest themselves in each dimension. Emotionally it is not "eating down" feelings, it is considered to be the "inner hunger."^[5]

Clinically, eating disorders are evaluated using instruments like the Questionnaire of Eating and Weight Patterns (QEWP), which has specialized versions for adolescents and parents (QEWP-A, and QEWP-P). In addition to evaluating eating patterns, the tests also measure depression.^[6]

Demographics

Recent studies of OA members have found 84% identified as binge eaters, 15% as bulimic (bulimia: a disorder of eating seen among young women who go on eating binges and then feel guilt and depression and self-condemnation), and 1% as anorexic. An earlier study found 44.5% identified as binge eaters, 40.7% as bulimic, and 14.8% as anorexic. Researchers have found the percentage of males in OA has increased from 9% in 1981 to 16% in 2001. This is generally inline with estimates made by the APA that the male to female ratio of those with eating disorders ranges from 1:6 to 1:10. Most OA members are white and highly educated. Some researchers have speculated the racial disparity is related to cultural perceptions of obesity.^[2]

The typical OA member surveyed works in a full-time capacity. Homemakers only comprise 6% of the population, in contrast to 30% of those surveyed in 1981. This vividly reflects the trend in our society for increasing numbers of females to be employed outside of the home. Further, 80% of today’s participants have attained a college degree, far surpassing the 59% of those attaining the degree in 1981. Another noteworthy change is reflected in the percentage of those divorced or separated. This number has risen from 10% in 1981 to 21% in 2001. It is apparent that greater gender equality over the last twenty years has significantly contributed to myriad demographic changes, yielding both positive and negative consequences.^[2]

Recovery tools and strategies

OA program literature describes eight "Tools of Recovery." These include attendance at OA meetings, reading/writing from the Twelve Step literature, adhering to a food plan, having a sponsor, giving service, taking time for prayer and meditation, sponsorship, and making phone calls to other members. They are considered critical to obtaining and maintaining abstinence.^[7]

Meetings offer a consensual validation and serve to diminish feelings of guilt and shame. A sponsor provides guidance through the OA program and support where necessary, but gradually encourages autonomy in the sponsee. A sponsor strives to make her job obsolete.^[8]

Food plans

In Overeaters Anonymous, abstinence is "the action of refraining from compulsive eating." OA has a long and complex history with "food plans" and does not endorse or recommend any specific plan of eating, nor does it exclude the personal use of one.^[7]^[9] At present, OA recommends that each member consult a qualified health care professional, such as a physician or dietician.^[7] OA publishes a pamphlet Dignity of Choice which assists in the design of an individual food plan and also provides six sample plans of eating (reviewed and approved by a licensed dietitian) with which some OA members have had success.^[10]

Individual OA meetings and sponsors may make more detailed suggestions. Some of these caution against foods containing excessive sugar, alcohol, and wheat. Research has found that OA members with excessively rigid plans are not likely to remain abstinent. It is suggested that new members start with a some-what rigid plan that becomes increasingly more flexible approaching the end of a year in the program.^[8]

Correlations with maintaining abstinence

Research has identified a number of OA practices significantly correlating with maintaining abstinence in OA: adherence to a food plan (including weighing and measuring food), communication with other members (specifically sponsors), spending time in prayer and meditation, performing service work, completing the fourth step, completing the ninth step, writing down thoughts and feelings, attending meetings, reading OA/AA liteature, and the educational status of the participant. Researchers have therefore concluded that application of OA practices might directly help promote abstinence and reduce the frequency of relapse in those with binge eating disorder and bulimia nervosa.^[2]

Honesty

Though not found in research to be significant, a number of OA members responded that honesty was a very important OA practice. Researchers have noted the high level of honesty at OA meetings and pointed out that working the Twelve Steps reinforces this quality.^[2]

Spirituality

Some researchers have found that in spite of its perceived high importance to the program that spirituality does not correlate with measures of weight loss, while others have found somewhat contradictory conclusions. In particular and increased sense of spirituality was correlated with positive gains in eating attitudes, less body shape concerns, and positive psychological and social functioning. However, measures of religiosity and particular religious affiliations have never been found to correlate with treatment outcomes.^[2]^[8]^[11]

Demographic abstinence differences

Some research has found the average length of abstinence for bulimics in OA was significantly higher than the average length for binge eaters. Paradoxically, bulimics were also found to attend fewer meetings, and had less of a commitment to write their thoughts and feelings down daily. However, The frequency of relapse for bulimics and binge eaters was not significant. The differences may be explained by the predictable nature of the bulimic cycle. Other research has found binge eaters in OA had better success than bulimics. Most OA members who have reported negative experiences in the program are anorexic. This could be caused by OA's focus on problems of eating too much rather than too little. Some OA practices, such as refraining from eating certain kinds of foods, are antithetical in the case of anorexics. Though, most anorexics have a previous history of bulimia.^[2]^[12]

Results

The average weight loss of participants in OA has been found to be 21.8 pounds. Survey results show that 90% of OA has responded that their lives have improved either "somewhat, much, or very much" in their emotional, spiritual, career, and social lives. OA's emphasis on group commitment and psychological and spiritual development provided a framework for developing positive, adaptive, and self-nurturing treatment opportunities.^[2]^[8]

Changes in worldview

Changes in worldview are believe to be critical for individuals in the recovery process, as they are generally accompanied by significant behavioral changes. According, several research have identified world view transformation in members of various self-help groups engaged in addiction issues. Such research describes "worldview" has having four domains: (1) experience of self; (2) Universal Order/God; (3) relationships with others; (4) perception of the problem. In OA members changed their beliefs that (1) "it is bad to eat" to "one must eat to stay alive and should not feel guilty about it"; (2) "one is simply overweight and needs to lose pounds" to "one has underlying psychological and interpersonal problems"; (3) "one must deprecate oneself, deprive oneself, please other people" to "it is okay to express positive feelings about oneself and take care of one's needs"; (4) "food is the answer to all problems, the source of solace" to "psychological and emotional needs should be fulfilled in relationships with people"; "I am a person who eats uncontrollably" to "I am someone who has limitations and does not eat what is harmful for me."^[13]

Understanding of control

The act of binging and purging provides the bulimic with the illusion that she can regain a sense of control. Binge eating has been described as a "futile attempt to restock depleted emotional stores, when attempts at doing everything perfectly have failed." The self-destructive behavior of injecting intoxicating drugs parallels overeating in that it permits the user not only to experience comfort, but to feel deservedly punished when through.^[2]

In relationships, many OA members attested to trying to obtain absolute control of their own lives and those of others. Paradoxically, OA member's experience of themselves was also characterized by strong feelings of personal failure, dependence, despair, stress, nervousness, low self-esteem, powerlessness, lack of control, self-pity, frustration and loneliness. As part of these feelings, the self was perceived as being both a victim of circumstances and a victim of the attitude of others. Many members viewed this lack of self-esteem as deriving from their external appearance. Harsh self-criticism is a typical characteristic, accompanied by feelings of "I don't deserve it," and "I'm worth less than others." Such feelings were found to have a dominant influence on the structure of relationships with others.^[13]

The members describe their sense of relaxation and liberation and the concomitant growing value of restraint and modesty in their lives. Their testimonies show that, paradoxically, it is by becoming aware of their powerlessness and accepting the self's basic limitations that they start to feel the recovering self's growing power. At the same time, personal responsibility replaces self-pity and the expectation that others will act for the good of the individual. In this attitude, egocentricity and exaggerated, false self-confidence perpetuate the problem that led them to join OA. While eating disorder was active many OA members claimed that their experience of self was composed of an obsessive aspiration for perfection that concealed their sense of worthlessness.^[13]

Comparisons

The main difference between Twelve Step work and cognitive-behavioral therapy is the acceptance of a Higher Power and providing peer support. A large study, known as Project Match, compared the two approaches as well as motivational enhancement therapy in treating alcoholics. The Twelve Step programs were found to be more effective in promoting abstinence. However, some researchers have found that cognitive-behavioral therapy is the most effective treatment for bulimics. The two approaches are not mutually exclusive.^[2]

OA is most appropriate for patients who need intensive emotional support in losing weight. Each OA group has its own character and prospective members should be encouraged to sample several groups.^[14]

Criticism

OA is different from group therapy in that it does not allow its participants to express their feelings about and directly to each other during meetings. OA meetings are intended to provide a forum for the expression of experience, strength and hope in an environment of of safety and simplicity.^[2]

Feminist

OA has been the target of feminist criticism for encouraging bulimic and binge eating women to accept powerlessness over food. Feminists criticize that the perception of powerlessness adversely affects women's ongoing struggle for empowerment. Similarly, teaching people they are powerless is liable to encourage passivity and prevent binge eaters and bulimics from developing coping skills. These effects would be most devastating for women who have suffered oppression, distress, and self-hatred. In these criticisms Twelve Step programs are described as inherently male organizations that force female members to accept self-abasement, powerlessness, external focus, and rejection of responsibility inherent — qualities attributed to male religion and politics. Surrender is described as invoking images of women passively submitting their lives to male doctors, teachers, and ministers. Alternatively, they suggest that women would do better to focus on pride rather than on humility.^[2]^[13]

Fanaticism

Opponents of Twelve Step programs argue that members become cult-like in their adherence to the program, which can have a destructive influence, isolating those in the programs. Moreover this kind of fanaticism may lead to perception that other treatment modalities are unnecessary. Surveys of OA members has found that they exercise regularly, attend religious services, engage in individual psychotherapy and are being prescribed antidepressants. This is evidence that participants do not avoid other useful therapeutic interventions outside of Twelve Step programs.^[2]

Vagueness of abstinence in OA

The concept of abstinence in OA has been criticized for its inherent ambiguity. While in AA abstinence means not drinking alcohol, there is no direct analogy for compulsive eaters.^[2]

Literature

OA also publishes the book Overeaters Anonymous (referred to as the "Brown Book"), The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous, For Today (a book of daily meditations), the OA Journal for Recovery, a monthly periodical known as Lifeline, and several other books.^[2] The following list is comprehensive.

Overeaters Anonymous (January 2001). Overeaters Anonymous. Torrance, California: Overeaters Anonymous, Incorporated. ISBN 1889681024. OCLC 47722165.
Overeaters Anonymous (October 1993). The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous. Torrance, California: Overeaters Anonymous. ISBN 0960989862. OCLC 30004811.
Overeaters Anonymous (1995). Journal to Recovery (Overeaters Anonymous). ISBN 0960989889.
Overeaters Anonymous (October 1994). Abstinence: Members of Overeaters Anonymous Share Their Experience, Strength, and Hope. Rio Rancho, New Mexico: Overeaters Anonymous. ISBN 0960989870. OCLC 32666911.
Overeaters Anonymous (April 1993). The Twelve-Step Workbook of Overeaters Anonymous. Torrance, California: Overeaters Anonymous. ISBN 0960989854. OCLC 30170467.
Overeaters Anonymous (October 1990). Twelve Steps of Overeaters Anonymous. Torrance, California: Overeaters Anonymous. ISBN 0960989838. OCLC 22811051.
Overeaters Anonymous (1998). A New Beginning: Stories of Recovery from Relapse. Rio Rancho, New Mexico: Overeaters Anonymous. ISBN 1889681016. OCLC 40664593.

External links

References

^ Thomas, Paul R. (1995). Weighing the Options: Criteria for Evaluating Weight-management Programs. Washington, D.C.: National Academies Press. ISBN 0309051312. OCLC 31740377.
^ ^a ^b ^c ^d ^e ^f ^g ^h ⁱ ^j ^k ^l ^m ⁿ ^o ^p ^q Kriz, Kerri-Lynn Murphy (May 2002). The Efficacy of Overeaters Anonymous in Fostering Abstinence in Binge-Easting Disorder and Bulimia Nervosa. Virginia Polytechnic Institute and State University.
^ Alcoholics Anonymous (1976-06-01). Alcoholics Anonymous. Alcoholics Anonymous World Services. ISBN 0916856593. OCLC 32014950.
^ Alcoholics Anonymous (2002-02-10). Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions. Hazelden. ISBN 0916856011. OCLC 13572433.
^ Lerner, Helen; R., Helene (1989). Take It Off and Keep It Off. McGraw-Hill Professional. ISBN 0809244934. OCLC 19887525.
^ Johnson, William G.; Grieve, Frederick G.; Adams, Christina D.; Sandy, Jamie (January 1998). "Measuring Binge Eating in Adolescents: Adolescent and Parent Versions of the Questionnaire of Eating and Weight Patterns". International Journal of Eating Disorders. ISSN 0276-3478.
^ ^a ^b ^c (1994) Tools of Recovery. Rio Rancho, New Mexico: Overeaters Anonymous World Service, 8.
^ ^a ^b ^c ^d Wasson, Diane H.; Jackson, Mary (2004). "An Analysis of the Role of Overeaters Anonymous in Women's Recovery from Bulimia Nervosa". Eating Disorders. DOI:10.1080/10640260490521442. ISSN 1532-530X.
^ OA San Diego County Intergroup (2000-08-17). Food Plans in Overeaters Anonymous: A Chronological History. Retrieved on 2007-07-10.
^ Dignity of Choice. Dignity of Choice. Overeaters Anonymous World Service (2000). Retrieved on 2007-07-10.
^ Smith, Faune Taylor; Hardman, Randy K.; Richards, P. Scott; Fischer, Lane (2003). "Intrinsic Religiousness and Spiritual Well-Being as Predictors of Treatment Outcome Among Women with Eating Disorders". Eating Disorders 11 (1): 15-26. DOI:10.1080/10640260390167456. ISSN 1532-530X.
^ Joranby, Lantie; Pineda, Kimberly Front; Gold, Mark S. (2005). "Addiction to Food and Brain Reward Systems". Sexual Addiction & Compulsivity 12 (2): 201-217. DOI:10.1080/10720160500203765. ISSN 1532-5318.
^ ^a ^b ^c ^d Ronel, Natti; Libman, Galit (Summer 2003). "Eating Disorders and Recovery: Lessons from Overeaters Anonymous". Clinical Social Work Journal 31 (2).
^ Tsal, Adam Gllden; Wadden, Thomas A. (January 2005). "Systematic Review: An Evaluation of Major Commercial Weight Loss Programs in the United States". Annals of Internal Medicine 142 (1): 56-66. ISSN 0003-4819.

Meitantei Conan Jolly Roger in the Deep Azure

2007-10-19T16:03:00.000-07:00

It had taken me quite a while getting into "Meitantei Conan Jolly Roger in the Deep Azure": the 11th movie of Conan started with a long, tedious, ambiguous, and loosely-organized robber-chasing, then the scene suddenly switched to a summer beach on Shenhai Island, commencing the story about a group of treasure hunters searching for the secret treasure hidden by Anne Bonny and Mary Read, two female pirates who disguised themselves as men in order to join Rackham's crew aboard the Revenge. Conan and friends, as they do all the time, involved in the story-tried to uncover the crime the treasure hunters committed on the one hand, and gradually unfolded the seldom known history of Anne and Mary, two real characters in the history of pirate.

"Bonny and Read became close companions to one another, and when Bonny walked in on Read undressing one day, she discovered her secret. The two women agreed to keep this from everyone, and Bonny swore not to reveal that Read was really a woman. It was indicated in the writings of author and Captain Charles Johnson that, at least at first, their attraction to one another was of a romantic nature, but that is not known beyond a doubt." It vaguely implies there might be some feelings beyond friends between them which is hard to describe in words, though they were both married and pregnant when imprisoned. The film well captured such subtle emotion but distilled it into pure friendship; such gorgeous relation between them were sublimed at the end of the film: the ship with Jolly Roger built by Anne were well taken care and had been waited for 300 years for her companion; it had been expecting Anne and Mary combat as before -- one with gun and one with sword, back to back and each one take care of what has been happening behind the other's back. After 300 hundred years of sleep on the bottom of the azure ocean, it resurrected by its farewell performance-- saved Conan and Lan and others back -- and collapsed and sinked forever.

I do love this last part. True love will never fade away if trust, faith, and persistence exist.

I had been trying to write something about contradiction and paradox but was interrupted... hope to get back to this later...

Is there ever such a psychological issue called "人群恐惧症"? It is very likely I am suffering it... Thousands of evidence can be put forward to support this worry. Sometimes I just want to find a isolated place to hide even if people think I am, and I admit, a coward. It is 1:59 am, early Oct. 20 morning; heavily raining outside, and I absolutely need sleep rather than non-sense thinking.

Inhale now exhale

2007-10-18T15:30:00.000-07:00

The critical habit of thought, if usual in society, will pervade all its mores, because it is a way of taking up the problems of life. Men educated in it cannot be stampeded by stump orators... They are slow to believe. They can hold things as possible or probable in all degrees, without certainty and without pain. They can wait for evidence and weigh evidence, uninfluenced by the emphasis or confidence with which assertions are made on on side or the other. They can resist appeals to their dearest prejudices and all kinds of cajolery.

-- "Folkways" 1906

William Graham Summer

I need some faith to rely on

2007-10-15T15:06:00.000-07:00

Saturday night: watching 'Lust Caution' with a bunch of MIT friends at Kendall Theatrer (review following on); Sunday afternoon: red-leave-viewing at Walden Pond with a couple of Taiwan friends; Today: lost and day dreaming throughout Dave's talk about some 'entropy budget' thing; really scared by my short-sightedness (it's going worse and worse as I sleep less and less =( when I failed to keep lecture notes in Stat 110 lecture; drinking an evil cup of coffee which I shouldn't have since I had promised I'll quit; astoundedly realizing the midterm for stat110 will be coming in 9 days, and making little progress on my research... It has been years before I finally realize I don't know how to talk lately; not only in English, but in Chinese. Or I should say, it has nothing to do with language I use, but it's the problem of my way of thinking, learning and memorizing. Remember Ni said life could be better if people could choose what to remember and what to erase from memory. I may probably be the kind of person who's good at forgetting things (and I'm getting even better), with the faith nostalgia does no good to you and prevent you from being strong, but overlook the point here is actually to selectively forget instead of forget completely. Keep a note in mind what I see, read, hear, feel is crucial to self-improvement; it's absolutely worthwhile, even if I have to pay the cost to root some bad memory in my brain as a 'side product'. Everything has to be put out the way they're supposed to be. Everyone who's carrying out these things are unique in some sense but identical in a logic way: no one could ever break the law our universe or our society follows; otherwise he/she will not be qualified to carry out things the way in which he/she likes. Bad health condition is alarming the bell. My bad, I know. I should have paid more attention to this but I didn't; I boasted I have no fear on death but I surely did. There is a devil in me called 'face-demon'; I've been almost killed by him for ages. But he's caught me deeply in my heart, making me addict to his phantom singing voice as addiction to drug. Well, get back to health. The first problem I should fix is to go to bed earlier and get more sleep. It won't be hard. Just love myself, treat myself well =)

I though I would see some red leaves, but the leaves refused to turn red so early that may waste the summer beauty...

Cute puppies!

North Bridge:The North Bridge, often colloquially called the Old North Bridge, across the Concord River in Concord, Massachusetts is a historical site in the Battle of Lexington and Concord, the first battle day in the Revolutionary War. Here five full companies of Minutemen and five of non-Minuteman militia occupied this hill with groups of other men streaming in, totaling about 400 against the British light infantry companies from the 4th, 10th, and 43rd Regiments of Foot under Captain Laurie, a force totaling about 90-95 men. The bridge—as well as the revolutionary events that took place around it—are commemorated poetically in Ralph Waldo Emerson's well-known Concord Hymn (1837), the first stanza of which follows:
"By the rude bridge that arched the flood,
Their flag to April's breeze unfurled,
Here once the embattled farmers stood
And fired the shot heard round the world."

Lost in eps 200

2007-10-09T19:55:00.000-07:00

Oh~ my~ god! (trying to imitate Janice lol) I was so lost in today's EPS 200 lecture!!! It was more like a physical chemistry class than an 'atmospheric chemistry' thing! How could the prof just suppose we know everything about the basic PC knowledge (though it is the case for everyone except me, sadly)? Unfortunately, it turned out that I have nothing to base upon; the superstructure is hazardously lofting in the air with no support from below. Well well well, I got to read something before it gets too late to catch up!!

Today's IEL class led me to reconsider my problems in talking. I was partially right in that I'm kinda weak at critical thinking (recalling Nan always criticizes the lack of logic in what I'm saying), and presenting thoughts in a well organized manner. It is not a flaw of a housewife that you don't know much things other than what you're doing, but it's definitely your problem and should be blamed about if you are a 'smart' human-being and want to survive in a top level university with lots of genius peering around at the lower end or wanna thrive in your career in the future at the higher end. You have no excuse to indulge your sloth growing inside of you. That means, either glowing, or fading away. Back to myself, I know I am still sort of bogged down by English expression, but it's also critical to realize I should spare more time in thinking rather than eating!!

I like to put 'no pain, no gain' in this way 'no pain, no fun' or 'no push, no growing up'. Keep on pushing!!!

2007-10-08T21:35:00.000-07:00

In case people get bored...

Now comes what I want to discuss about, enjoy!

1. Why did the American colonists prefer purchasing African slaves to hiring European workers?

African slaves could be bought outright at a incredibly low price, working as a compulsory labor for life, while European worker could be only hired and paid at a much higher yearly rate, and still reserve their freedom.

2. Who produced most of the major exports from the New World?

Except for the precious metal, almost all major American exports to Europe were produced by African slaves.

3. Why was the legal definition of African slaves ambiguous in 17th century America?

Slavery had been on the decline since the Middle ages in England and most other European countries generally; Africans brought to America were regarded as 'servants' eligible for freedom a certain number of years.

4. According to the article, where was legal slavery first established?

The first official legal chattel slavery was in Massachusetts in 1641.

5. Why did the colonists prefer to get African slaves from New World colonies rather than directly from Africa?

There are two reasons for this preference: 1. the slaves from NW were familiar with western customs and work habits and hence were prized for high qualities in a region where masters and slaves worked and lived in close proximity; 2. they adjusted better to Northern winters than Africans.

6. Why was agricultural slavery unsuccessful in the northern USA?

The northern climate with long, cold winter set barrier to large-scale agricultural slavery; with no income from Northern farms in winter, slaves were made a burden in contrast to Southern plantation slavery.

7. How was religion used as a justification by Puritan slave owners?

It was believed that not only slavery was sanctioned by the God of the Old Testament, it was a positive duty of his chosen people in the new world to bring the Gospel to the pagans of Africa.

8. How were the interracial relationships punished?

They were flogged; the black man would be sold out of the province, and the white woman was bound out to service to support any children resulting from the illicit union. Or, the man fined and held liable for support of any children, while the woman to be sold out of province.

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It must be very unpleasant to read this journal =( exactly the same as what I feel. Well, happy I've done with this article; even happier I kinda got sense to some certain extent.

Don't remind me about my HSWT... now I know why I would end up with taking the course no matter how much I feel I'm being tortured as I've been put in jail...

Sweet dream =D

Little Lulu

2007-10-07T23:14:00.000-07:00

Let me explain...

Here are some webpages I found about little lulu:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Little_Lulu

http://michelesworld.net/lulu/lulu.htm

http://www.cloudnet.com/~bobpfef/LULU.HTM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q4QiD2-K5bs

Jeux d'enfant

2007-10-07T19:29:00.000-07:00

It has been deadly painful to decide to litter the old me. I hated myself -- how could one ever be more self-contempt, 饕餮, self-indulgent, careless and vulnerable than I am? I blamed myself about finding no interests in life but still craving for things beyond my ability to reach. To be greedy, ignorant and peacockish, I've kept on pushing myself and taking every tiny effort as suffering, bearing in mind 'my current pain will pay off in the future'. They've been paid off-- I pampered myself from time to time to keep the momentum to move on-- I was like a glutton, eating till death with no mercy on my physical body; then was deadly regretful, fearful, and desperate seeing myself falling down to the hell with no remedy to save back... Or, should I say, one without love is absent for being loved? or the other way around? or, specifically, one not in love will never know what love actually looks like.

Please, live on hope.

I've got tons of chances to be someone better than I am now, but I wasted; I've got plenty of time to train myself as a fearless soldier, but I cowered; I've got hopes to love or to be loved, but I dared to try out. If I am no perfection, why both to behave like a psycho-perfectionist?

Nothing has been left that I have to hide from people -- why bother? Why the hell I still want to save face if no one ever knows who I am? My stupid self-esteem blocks my eye; dries my soul; wears out my energy; poisons my brain. I'm running insanely in a circle that every no-one follows -- then die, rotten, degrade to ashes.

Career meander
The ELP classes in the past week robbed my heart. I felt pain, then realized it's time to start over. No need to hide my ignorance and weakness: no one cares except myself. Unfold every tiny little piece of myself without timidity, here I am: I'm Lulu, maybe not as good as people thought, but this is the real me. Once a coward, but now dare to speak out; once hesitated, but now march forward with braveness.

Feelings
The past week was something that worth rehashing over: I was witnessing a strenuous start of a romance; I should say, a start in hope. This guy had been feeling down for his rough love life but did never dare to try everything on this new goal. I was once told by a physics girl back in Toronto that research is 99% of real frustration, 0.9% of disguised truth, and 0.1% of chance to success. This is the gospel also applying for chaser and goal, despite that the goal itself could be a non-neglectable disruptive factor. One should be sensitive enough to feel the love deeply growing in his/her heart, senseless enough to ignore the frustrations, brave enough to uncover the fake truth, and brilliant enough to fractionate that 0.1% to the part in his/her control and make it true. Obviously, if I'm sensitive, insensible, fearless, and talented at the same time, and, forgot to mention, appears kinda 'silly and weak', I will find my true love some day for sure. (This is a rigorous prove, isn't it? Though not realistic enough, unfortunately.)

Arts & my happy life

Q: What could ever be lovelier than a beautiful musical night on Broadway?
A: Les Misérables

Les Misérables (pronunciation /le mize'ʁaːbl/), colloquially known as Les Mis, is a musical composed in 1980 by French composer Claude-Michel Schönberg on a libretto by Alain Boublil. Through-sung, it is perhaps the most famous of all French musicals and one of the most performed musicals worldwide. On October 8, 2006, the show celebrated its 21st anniversary and became the longest-running West End musical in history and is still running (though it has changed venues).

Characters

Listed in the order in which they appear

Javert is the ruthless police detective who adheres strongly to the belief that people cannot change for the better. Javert serves, in general, one purpose in Les Misérables, albeit an extremely important one: to pursue Jean Valjean. Vocal Range: Baritone/Bass-Baritone.
Jean Valjean is a multi-faceted character. He is the archetype for the reformed criminal. Though his past is checkered, he possesses a fundamental understanding of the difference between right and wrong, and through insurmountable odds, lives a life of virtue. Vocal Range: Tenor.
Fantine is widely recognized as the truly tragic figure of Les Misérables. She makes some difficult choices, but ultimately sacrifices herself so her daughter might have a better life. Vocal Range: Mezzo-soprano.
Young Cosette, the daughter of Fantine, and the icon of the Musical (found on most advertising). Vocal Range: Mezzo-Soprano.
Madame Thénardier, M. Thénardier's wife. Works together with her husband, both when they own the inn and later on as his partner in crime. Vocal Range: mezzo-soprano
M. Thénardier, the ruthless innkeeper who is the guardian of Cosette in her early years. He is arguably the very definition of "unsavory". Vocal Range: Baritone.
Eponine Thénardier, the daughter of the Thénardiers. In love with Marius and sees Cosette, justifiably, as a rival. As a member of her father's gang and one of the many to die on the barricades, her fortitude cannot be denied. Vocal Range: Alto.
Marius Pontmercy is the young, impressionable rebel student who falls in love with Valjean's adopted daughter, Cosette. One of the few left on his feet at the final curtain. Vocal Range: Baritone.
Cosette is Fantine's daughter and a very static character compared to the others. When coupled with Marius, their wide-eyed innocence and their optimism ensure their survival. Vocal Range: Soprano.
Enjolras, the student leader. Charismatic, handsome and a natural leader, his belief in the revolution takes the students, including Marius, to the barricades where they meet their demise. Vocal Range: Tenor.
Gavroche, a street urchin. A young boy who lives on the streets joins into the revolution. Vocal Range: boy alto/boy soprano.

A couple of names will ever be remembered:

Kaylie Rubinaccio | Young Cosette/ Young Eponine, Gary Watson | Marius, Cassandra Compton | Eponine, Joanna Ampil | Fantine

A basic introduction to the musical on Wiki
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Les_Mis%C3%A9rables_(musical)

Official site of the show:
http://www.lesmis.com/pages/about/cast.php

MoMA (Museum of Modern Arts)

It's never too late to learn that some beauty is impossible to be described by words... Not because they're too gorgeous to be sketched out, note: it's hard to plot out literally because I didn't learn why some of them are 'art' at all. lol

Don't get me wrong; I'm not saying all works here are non-understandable, though some may be so.

Time Square (remember the first time I was here, what kind of uneasy about future I was~~)

Guess it's time to wrap up this piece. Have fun my readers; hope you don't think this is a drag =)